as new year is approaching..there's only one thing id like to say.."dont live in the past..its absolutely obsolete...."-happy new year to all and a blissful eidul adha....

as i was laughing over the old episodes of friends...and continuously laughing over a phone call which was intentionally to envy me..(siapla azri and loko!!!)-fad and pak abu will be back with our sweet revenge..ehehe...my sister was like "adik!!!turun cepat!!!and i was like "awat?"-my sister and my mom have this obsession in buying textile..tonnes and tonnes of it...and mom was like.."look at yours.."and kakak was like "cantak dak cantak dak?"-it runs in the family to change the pronunciations of words and it has successfully infected both abang arzlee and kakak halimah as now they're one of us..heheh...i was surprised to see a black and white cloth...and i was told it is for my long call which is 3 months away...i know mom got excited about it..ehehe..and she was "cina kat kedai tu cakap kat mak..dato' azizah hakim sesyen court pon bli kain black and white kat situ sbb cantik...."and all that i can do is smile...as much as im looking forward to having my long call..i know mom and dad are more excited than me...hmmm..."

its a week away to bid farewell to 2006...and im looking forward to making more steps ahead next year...may Allah keep me strong to face the future....ameen....

yesterday as i was on duty in legal aid...i was assigned with a case on mitigation as the accused intended to plead guilty today... and to make things more dramatic the case was in magistrate's court 2..the ever feared court ever...and when i woke up at 630 to pray i was like oh God..i was dreaming of doing mitigation last nite...

as i was waiting for my case to be called up..tuan mazdi seemed to be not in the mood because many accuseds who had already pleaded guilty before withdrew their gulity plea today when sentence was ready to be passed..and i was like..o'o...God please save me...when my case was called up...the accused pleaded guilty and when tuan asked on mitigation..i stood up and submitted on factors of mitigation and the part that made me wanna laugh after the case was done was, i remember me saying.."tuan, saya percaya bahawa okt telah bertaubat dan tidak akan mengulangi kesalahan ini"-pretty dramatic i guess...i submitted on the point of law supported by cases..and then i was done...one of the mitigating factors that i submitted to the court was, the accused had no previous conviction...the accused was charged under section 380 which carries max 10 years imprisonment and fine...

as the p.o closed the submission on mitigation, it was time for the magistrate to pass the sentence..the accused was sentenced to 6 months imprisonment and i was quite surprised to hear that...before i went out of the court i had a glance at the accused and he nodded at me...i was so thrilled that i couldnt stop smiling...when kak nurul and kak ainul asked me on the sentence..they were like.."wo..tuan mazdi bagi 6 months ja..wah bagus2..."..what happened today taught me a good lesson...being a human i never escape from being judgmental towards the accused person..but one thing that we have to bear in mind..sometimes people do wrong things because they have to..because of poverty..because of immense needs...sometimes people do wrong things for the crime we have created on the society...we are too busy to fulfill our worldly desire that we forget our responsibility to the people who are in need...i guess the biggest crime that a state can commit to its citizen is to let them be on the bread line...the rich is getting richer and the poor is getting poorer..and then we punish them for the crime that we commit on them...now i understand why one of the companions used to suspend hudud punishment during the famine period...now that i understand what law is all about...and now i understand what reality we are living in....and now i understand what do i have to do to fulfill my obligation towards God....

when i woke up today..i realized that i didnt have to go to the court today...its a little awkward because i used to go to the court every day..suddenly around 845 my master called me..he wasnt feeling well today so i have to go to the court to sort out one matter..when i was on my way to the court...i got a call from abu..and he was telling me that he'd be in alor star ct today..all the way from penang...and i was like..''yay!!!!!"i was so thrilled that i could not stop smiling...obviously im missing all my friends so bad...we met in front of the session court and talked about so many things...then we had lunch together...chatting about things that have been changing our lives...laughing over this one guy..according to abu "mat bunga" having lunch with his girlfren..and making funny funny faces, i guess he was trying to be romantic..ehehe....then abu had to go back to penang....and my life resumes to its original mode....dear friends out there..im missing u guys like crazy...jom wat gathering jom!!!!!

today i got one matter in magistrate court 2..the most sensational and the most feared court for every chambering students..and the lawyers-both the junior and senior lawyers...every single entity in that court can never escape from being bombarded by the Magistrate..ironically..i happened to appear before him most of the time...i guess by now i get so immune by that...as i was waiting for my case to be called up..it felt like being in a cinema..full of emotions and dissatisfaction by both the lawyers and the magistrate...

after the court was stood down...every one was like so relieved at least for the time being...as i was done discussing with my client to record consent judgment..tuan razali, the prosecuting officer for court 2 called me up..next to him was tuan ng..the p.o for court 3...and suddenly tuan razali told tuan ng.."look at her...tak pernah tgk dia marah...senyum aja...orang pon tak jadi marah kat dia..she's so lucky..."and i was like..."ehehehe..."and tuan ng was like.."ya ya..."i want to be like you la...may be i should wear glasses like you"..and i was like.."yes tuan ng..then you join the indie rock underground band...that'd be perfect..."..and we laughed..and when other lawyers approached them..they kept on saying the same thing to other lawyers...and all i could do was ****blush*********

im happy that people keep telling me bout that...at least i know that im able to keep my composure when i have to deal with the reality of being a legal practitioner...its never easy to deal with all the stuff....to be on my own two feet...to be independently ready most of the time...im glad that i opted to do my chambering...i realized that this is what my brother has been telling me about..being independent....being able to stand on my own two feet...for success always comes the hard way...it is a tough world i must say...things have always been hard for me to deal with emotionally..but there's one thing that i gain from having to go through the hard times...the sense of independence....and why the sense of independence means so much for me..its because of me..being a woman...(sounds feminist eh?)...hmmm....

this afternoon as i was browsing through the files which keep piling up and up...like usual ill be listening to the radio all day long to keep me conscious in doing my work..i just couldnt believe my ears when i heard this dj reading an sms sent by a girl when the topic of discussion is "what do you hate most about yourselves"--she said.."what i hate most about myself is i couldnt be faithful to one guy...i feel sorry to my boyfriends"..and i was like..."for crying out loud..is there such thing as this?????"..oops..maybe im still doing things old school...conservative...but im more than happy to live in my own-defined world..regardless what other people say...im just being real..at least to myself...

when i started chambering...the moment that i anticipate the most is weekends..i love weekends..because all that i do on weekends is nothing but doing nothing...but this last weekend really bugged me.. a lot..because ive got two hearing..that was still ok but the scariest part of it was the hearing was before the most feared magistrate in alor star...and i happened to appear before him most of the time...

when i was on my way to the court today..i could literally feel the butterflies in my stomach...for the first case it went well as i recorded consent judgment..but the second case was really creeping me out..luckily the prosecuting officer was on leave so this 'bidan terjun p.o' was asking for another date for hearing cases..and i was like "yay....no hearing..."as the magistrate gave another date to other lawyers so that kinda convinced me that he'd give another date to me..when my case was called up..he asked for stand down and i was like.."o God...im screwed today.."out of the sudden kak prema called me to see the magistrate in his chamber..and i was so freaking out..when i got into the the chamber..he was like "so fadiah..what's the deal with this case"..and all the anxiety went away..i was explaining from a to z and then my client was called up to discuss on plea bargaining...everything went well...i was so happy that this case was settled today...and i was so happy that the magistrate was giving me directions as he realized that im still reading in chambers.....when i got into the chamber he was asking where i graduated from...and suddenly i realized that this is the time when you can be proud of your alma matter and it's all depending on you how to let people see the product of the institution....

and the lesson that ive learned today.."we know not what God has written for us...sometimes we only see bad things and we see nothing but sorrow...but as we step ahead..then we'll realize that all the good things are there...we have to feel the sadness as to appreciate how happiness feels like"...

Then Almitra spoke again and said, "And what of Marriage, master?"
And he answered saying:
You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.
You shall be together when white wings of death scatter your days.
Aye, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.
But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.
Love one another but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.
Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.
Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together, yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow. (The Prophet-chapter 3)

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indeed Kahlil's work is always inspiring...as much as im happy to see people decide to be in the bond of marriage..i have to admit that my own perspective of it rather invites criticism about me being too feminist (i guess the debate on this is way too extensive)..well i take it literally...perhaps im too devastated to what's been happening to the world...perhaps im being too paranoid about things...perhaps i concede to reality way too easy than other people who deny that they're being in denials....but please dont get me wrong on this...perhaps im being scared of what is real..i dont know..i dont think i have the answers...

but there's one thing i wana let the world know...i never have doubts in one thing...there's always something in nothingness..and to those who have found it...they have found the answers...i used to have a chat with my sister after she got married..

me: kakak takut tak to infidelity and unfaithfulness?
my sister: takut..
me: you got married anyway
my sister: all you need to do is to believe.

and i guess she's found something in nothingness...and im more than happy to see her happy in her marriage....

besides having a good laugh every time i watch everybody loves raymond..last nite was a blast...i really really had a good laugh over:

i) Chelsea seri sbb pakai ilmu tanam mata kucing

ii) ilmu kucing mengaum

iii) our nasyid band that sings " tadribul awal tadribul akhir tadribul tsalis tadributh thani yalla yalla shmashal".....

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SO, IM A MUSLIM..AM I?

its been a wonderful evening...legal aid held a seminar on criminal litigation..compulsory on all chambies..mr andrew paul was the speaker...its been very educational as it involved the issue of criminal justice...when he said that the principle "man is innocent until proven guilty" is only a mere saying in legal practice...as people tend to prejudge other people's act before he's given a fair opportunity to a fair trial...but this is really an awakening exposure..as me myself, an imperfect human being tend to do at times...

and i guess because of the nature of human beings of being imperfect, that gives more reason for us to be under the guidance of God...that's basically what Religion is all about..it not punitive and retaliatory..and to show how much God loves us that He made this right path for us..just waiting to be followed as the end destination is infinite...

i read the star news paper today..there was one anonymous letter that really caught my attention..its regarding the ill treatment the US immigration had given particularly on Malaysian citizen traveling into the country...in that letter he/she stated how devastated he was as Malaysians were being interrogated for hours and they missed the connecting flight...and this situation occurred occasionally...as he/she is working with one of the US corporation, this is to him/her very appalling situation...and at the end of the letter..he stated that..whenever their people are here..by our beaches or in our cities..we are being so nice to give them smiles which we could hardly get even before we get into their country...

my conclusion is simple..i strongly believe that the guy/woman whop wrote the letter must be a Muslim...that's the only reason that proves the point...because nowadays, being a Muslim, is a crime...and being a devoted Muslim is terrorism...and being a woman who wears jilbab to cover her aurah is a suicide bomber....

yet, we still refuse to defend the only thing that we have..that is the Religion...we'd die to live and look like "them"...at the expense of our own conscience...and look what's happening around us...they dont even bother to grant you the freedom and liberty that ure entitled to..they dont even bother to follow ur customs..they dont even bother to recognize the differences...and they even bother to stop labeling us as terrorists...and yet..we are so proud of their backwardness towardS the very basic principle of human right..that is conviction to the Religion...

and they have the nerve to label Muslims (devoted Muslims- use this term as thers's a titanically gigantic difference between Muslims and devoted Muslims) as terrorists whereas they are the ones who have committed the most appalling crimes against humanity..that is "RACISM"-particularly towards devoted Muslims...

"GOD....please save me...." (me talking in my prayers)..

as far as i can remember..this is my first time being seriously sick...flu..headache...dizzy..all in one package...a great deal eh...there's always a blessing behind all this...

last nite i could barely sleep..i was awake at 3.20 am..went downstairs to take ponstan...when i was on my way up, my dad opened his door and he was looking around..maybe he thought that bad nasty guys had broken into our house...luckily i was fully sober and i said.."cek ni.."ehehe..at least i know if something bad would ever happen to us..my father would do anything to see his family safe and sound...

as far as i remember..my father was not really involved in asking me to follow the normal parental rules when i was growing up...im so glad that my parents really believe in me..because its all about trust...even when i was in my university..he never asked me to do this or that..when i got the results of my exam..i showed them to him and he'd be smiling and kissed my forehead...

and now all that i wanna do is to make them proud of me..to be a good daughter (even though i know ive been kinda sensitive case to them)...ehehe...and nothing else really matters...

last week had been so hard for me...i gave up on something...and i felt so devastated about that...it felt so miserably wrong..particularly when i dont even know how to tell people what i feel...like what is always said...there'll be rainbow after the rain...

sometimes..i always feel that no one is able to comprehend what is on my mind...i guess i was wrong...i told particularly these three specific people..how devastated i was...ATI,ASMA and NAD...and much to my surprise..i guess i was too indulged in my frustration..i barely noticed that these three people were so worried about this bubbly girl feeling so down....ehehe...they called me and consoled me...and i had no choice but to lift my spirit up..for these people..and i realized how much they mean to me..how much the care about me..it was never my intention to tell them about my frustration..but good dear people who are dear to you can always sense when something is not right...

when people keep telling that it is nearly impossible to find people who are truly being honest with you..i can sit back and smile..because i have found them...

im so blessed that i got people who love me..just for the way i am...and they keep on loving me no matter how far we are geographically...and they make me believe in sincerity and honesty...thanx guys...

today was a new experince to me in the court..i got to apply to the court to discharge the accused as the prosecution lacks evidence to convict him...when the case was called up, my master asked me to stand up and speak...i was so surprised because usually when my master came for a certain matter, he would do all the talking..but today he gave me the honour to ask for discharge in front of the magistrate...quite thrilled though...

abang is here because kakak is oustation, yesterday..when we were sitting on the couch..he was like telling us about the amazing profiles of imam hanafi,hanbali,shafie and maliki..and he was saying "who are these people to question the credibility of the hukm by these great imams?"...my brother and i always discuss about the theoretical aspects of ijtihad and how little we know about the basis of the hukm,the law, the maqasid...because people dont really care to study these issues in details...for example...how many of us know the degree/status of hadith relating to male's aurah and music...and how many of us know the explanation of those hadith..in reality..we tend to take matters literally...subtle..on the surface..and this failure has given more rooms to those people out there to make fun of our religion..quoting hadith which was fabricated...quoting hadith without the real knowledge as to the real syarah/explanation of the hadith...foer instance..the Pope's sayings about our beloved Prophet...which are far from true..

and my last words are.."let's introduce the Religion by the sayings of the Prophet and dont let the lips of the ignorant and the enemy spread those sayings and contaminate our Religion....peace out...

The day the child realizes that all adults are imperfect, he becomes an adolescent; the day he forgives them, he becomes an adult; the day he forgives himself, he becomes wise...-alden nowland.

happy eidul fitr...even though the raya mood has faded away..but the memory on the first day of raya was joyous...as usual..kakak and abang arzlee were with us this raya..abang firhat got quarantined because he got chicken pox..and kakak went back to muar...in the morning abah, mak, adik abg arzlee,kakak,adik and me took raya photos...paid visit to relatives..got back home..watched tv...just like previuos raya..but what made it fun..the laughter..the jokes we made..the conversation we had...plainly fun..

and i still remeber 2 days before raya i started messaging dear frens of mine..like usual..every raya..id make a standard template of raya message-a pantun in particular...when i was cracking up my head thinking about the theme of the pantun message..i got a very brilliant idea..because the night before that i was so full of beans since my favourite team won against liverpool...way the go man u!!!!the message was :

"old trafford menjadi saksi,
man utd menang bergaya,
hari raya menjelang kembali,
ingin ku ucap selamat hari raya..-fadiah-the ever staunch fan of mu-"

so i started sending this msg to all my frens..

and much to my surprise..instead of getting a reply on raya msg i got funny reply particularly from liverpool fan, and arsenal fan too..(jealousy i guess ehehe)...i kept laughing and laughing...i still remeber pakdi said to me "takkan ku ampun mu fan di hari raya..pouchu..nak msg raya lain"...then i sent pakdi another msg as he requested..."selamat hari raya..maaf zahir batin...jemputlah datang ke rumah pouchu di old trafford"...;)

and khalid, abang ikhwan-being staunch fans of arsenal (uwekkk) were like...soooo jealous of mu..sorry guys!!!just cant help myself from being so joyous bout the victory..

and sarah kambali..being my mu fren since we were in uia...obviously shared the same sentiment as i did..way to go girl!!!!

that basically was it..raya 2006...

peace out!!!!****

it was a fun day..after my master got back from the court..the other staff and me were attacking him simultaneously to get approval of our cases...since my master was rushing to take one week off..before he left he wished deepavali and hari raya..and i was so surprised coz i got duit raya..it felt like i when i was a little girl..ehehe...

it's been 4 months of my chambering..and im so glad that ive learned so much...and i get many friends all the way..the senior lawyers...the court staff...the prosecuting officers..it felt nice to be treated like a lil sister in this practice..

come to think about how my life goes right now really intrigues me..i used to hate civil precedure like hell..and i used to be hating doing chambering even before i started it..but now..its the other way around..i felt so good to learn things which ill never find in books..now im drinking civil procedure..its fun..so much fun doing it...it gets more fun because my master gave me the crucial work of being a lawyer..i get to start a new case the first moment the client came to seek opinion..and i get to finish the case until judgement..it took a lot of hard work..but the moment the case is settled..all i can do is smile..

and when i go to court, kakak2 lawyer always asked me what do i learn during my chambering..i listed all the things that ive been doing...and all of them were amazaed..they even say..they havent got the chance to do all those things that ive been doing..im so grateful to know that..thanx to my brother for he always right in his judgement when it comes what is the best for me...

hmm..tomorrow kakak and abang azli will be home..haha..she is already asking me to cook for her..her fav food..but im ok with that...because i always cook for her before she got married..cant wait to see both of them..there's a lot to talk about...

and lately..i was bombarded with same typical orthodox question..."bila nak kahwin"..and all i can say is that..."marriage is no picnic!!!!"eheh..come on guys..there's always other things to ask...like..hmm..i dont know..anything...anything at all...

oh..before i forget...selamat hari raya...maaf zahir batin to all...

peace out^^^

hmm...as days pass by..me being in this legal practice..surrounded by people who have what it takes to call this a life...the more i understand about reality...life is never always a utopian dream..the more you are open to face this world..the more vulnerable you get..the higher the chances for you to get hurt...but the least you can do is to pray to God..that you'll always be protected and blessed...

IF YOU SUPPORT JUSTICE AND HUMANITY..READ THIS!!!!

IF YOU SUPPORT HUMANITY..PLEASE READ THIS!!!!!

"Allahumma innaka a'fuwwun karim..tuhibbul 'afwa fa'fu a'nna"~~marhaban ya ramadhan!!!i just wana wish all of u a bilssful ramadhan...

On last Thursday..after i got back from kangar court.. I had to attend a seminar held by Kedah/Perlis Legai Aid Bureau...the seminar was about our role as legal practitioner in dealing with refugees matter..

The speakers and the organizer were from the United Nations High Commissioner for Refugees (UNHCR) ..And two young lawyers who are actively involved in this area were invited as speakers...

I have to admit that the issue on refugees is quite alien to me...and I guess to most of us..but believe me..its not alien to us..its just that we never want to spend a little time on this because we are too busy to think of others but ourselves...or just because we were born to be just the way we are...complacent..the virus that creates the disease of individualism which only means we care only about ourselves...

But there's always room for improvement...all that we need to bear in mind is to spread the words of virtue..and justice shall be upheld...

Without realizing it...refugees..or "pelarian" have always been the issue in the court of law..as Malaysia is not a party to the Refugee Convention, therefore these international rules governing refugees do not apply in Malaysia...to make things even worse..those refugees who had been detained by malaysian authority and brought before the court are tried by the immigration law which does not specifically deal with refugees...

And I wonder...we apply law which is not meant to be applied to these refugees...wouldn't it be absurd?unjust?and inhumane?--well..that's what has been going on and on..therefore UNHCR was given the duty to remedy this situation even though its not 100% effective to absolve those unfortunate refugees...

Then I came to realize that it is our duty as legal practitioner to fight for these people..people who couldn't fight for themselves...

What is a refugee then..it simply means people who flee/leave their countries because they are afraid of persecution (they might be killed or threatened if they stay in their own countries) just because they belong to certain social group or ideology...these people flee their countries to find protection in other country..and it is an established customary international law principle of "non-refoulement" which means that when a refugee seeks protection in another country..we cannot send him back to his country...but its important to note that there's a distinction between a refugee and economic migrant. An economic migrant or better known as illegal immigrant normally leaves a country VOLUNTARILY to seek a better life or working opportunities in another country. Therefore, if..by any chance you get to see someone from the specified countries as ive listed above with fears of going back to his country of origin because he might face persecution/threat to his life..do not hesitate to call or sms the above number of UNHCR.

Having said the above, this suggests that refugees must be treated in great fairness in the enjoyment of the essence of humanity...but what the law has been treating them all this while suggests otherwise...because, in most cases when our local authority detain them...they would be prosecuted for illegally entering our country without valid documents...and the ones who need protection now are the fugitives before our own law...

Therefore, it is my humble request to all people out there...that we can help these people who are in need of our attention...if you have any doubts or suspicion with regards to any accused in court who particularly are Achehnese from Indonesia , Muslims from Myanmar, Chin from Myanmar,or those who came from Palestine or Iran...kindly as soon as possible contact the UNCHR HOTLINE NO: 012 6305060 via sms or calls or voicemails and they would respond to you ASAP to save those refugees from being wrongly prosecuted for crimes they do not commit...

Im glad and grateful to realize that being in this legal field actually gives us more rooms to safeguard the value of humanity from being gravely violated without any justified grounds...and it is our duty to respond to issues that involve humanity...because how strong we try to evade ourselves from these kinds of issue..believe me..that our conscience can never keep its mouth shut from telling you what is right and what is wrong ..right there at the back of our heads...its time for us to think about the world while we still have time to save it....

~~Peace out~~

JARINGAN PERSAHABATAN DI BUMI JAKARTA DAN BANDUNG...


9/9/2006

hari ini udah hari terakhir gwe di bandung.shopping banyak sekali..3 hari putar2 di bandung..hampir semua factory outlet(f.o) gwe sama kak irah udah putar...semalam hampir 10 jam berjalan..capek banget..tapi gak apa kerna hati senang sekali..semasa mau pulang ke hotel orang di pinggir jalan semuanya negur kami kerna shopping nya banyak sekali..kresek(shopping bag) banyak banget..berat sekali..semasa mau lewat jalan..ada cowok negur "neng..tadi dari jalan dago udah sampe ke jalan riau belanja nya ya..hati2 ya..."kami rasa aneh sekali..gi mana cowok itu kenal kami ya...ehehe...

malamnya gwe sama kak irah ketemu dani temannya fesal..kami sama ivan, dani,nisah dan erin keluar makan malam barang2 (sama-sama).kami mau order mee "kornet".gwe nanya sama mereka apa itu kornet kerna bunyinya aneh sekali..Dani bilang kornet itu daun ganja..gwe lagi freaked out terus mau nukar ordernya..tapi Dani bilang usah takut kerna kornet yang sayur yang masih belum kering legal..jadi boleh dimakan...kata Dani yang udah kering itu aja yang illegal kerna udah jadi ganja...gwe hampir percaya.tapi nisah tiba2 terbilang dia gak suka sawi..argh!!!teryata Dani sama Erin bo'ong..kornet itu sebenarnya daging sapi....yang di dalam mee itu sawi..bukan daun ganja...haha...

malam udah lewat tapi kami semua gak mau tidur kerna semuanya masih mau ngobrol2...Dani yang pada mulanya mau pulang setelah ngantar fesal ke hotel was the one yang bercerita...dan ternyata gwe sama kak ira bo'ong sama dia tentang apa beda antara comel dan kacak..ternyata dia juga tertipu..haha...sori ya dani..sedang kami asik ngobrol..nisah sama ivan keluar dengan motor dani..dan dani tiba2 datnag bilang motornya ilang...gwe sama kak irah nanya kalo ilang kenapa dia masih di sini..dia bilang "gwe gak mau panik2...."..bo'ong lagi kamu dani...bila nisah sama ivan pulang..kami terharu banget kerana mereka keluar mencari kotak untuk ngisi barang shopping kami...terharu sekali....makasih kalian...really appreciate it...

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sekarang gwe, fesal, erin sama kak irah di stesen kereta api ditemani ivan. Kasihan ivan..gak tidur semalam tapi masih lagi mau nolong kami angkat barang2 belanja yang beratttt banget..makasih ivan...sedih banget mau berpisah sama teman2 di sini..teman2 yang baik banget...

gwe juga kangen bangat sama kak dete,hanny,fikri,family nya kak dete dan juga bintang...yang suka senyum...gwe senag banget sama kak dete..gwe kagum sekali sama perjuangan kak dete..semangat kak dete amat tinggi sekali..gak kenal erti putus asa..bercita-cita tinggi demi anak bangsa..gwe bersyukur banget dapat kenal sama kak dete..gak sangka gwe bisa ngobrol lama2 sama kak dete tanpa rasa bosan...semasa hari pertama di bandung lagi sedang berbelanja..gwe fesal bilang sama gwe temannya kak dete mau ketemu gwe tentang isu yang gwe sama kak dete bincang dalam mobil hari pertama gwe di jakarta...tapi gwe gak sempat mau ketemu kerna gwe masih stuck di fo dan gak sempat jumpa...tapi kami ttp akan terus berhubung..kerna gwe pasti akan membantu selagi gwe mampu...
gwe kagum dgn apa yang gwe lihat...perjuangan yang bukan hanya pada kata-kata..gwe kagum bila ke kantornya kak dete yang fund nya dari belanda...gwe kagum bila kak dete bilang tentang organisasi itu..gwe bersyukur sama Tuhan kerna gwe diberi kesempatan untuk melihat erti perjuangan sebenar..perjuangan demi kebahagiaan orang lain...demi Tuhan...bak kata bang ezam..''disini kita lebih dekat dengan syurga''.baru sekarang gwe ngerti kata2 itu..kerna di sini mengajar erti sebenar kehidupan dan perjuangan..dalam memartabatkan maruah dan keperibadian insan yang bernama manusia...


teman-teman serius sekali nyuruh kami extend tiket so that kami bisa lagi di sini lebih lama...i wish i could...udah plan sama ivan mau ke bali next time...

...nanti gwe sambung lagi ya..mau santai dulu....

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10/09/2006

setelah 3 jam dalam train, kami tiba di jakarta..lalu ke rumahnya erin..gwe agak risau mau nginap di rumah erin..ternyata gwe salah kerna bila ketemu kakak sama bangnya erin..gwe udah gak risau lagi...mereka sangatbaikkk...gwe senang skali di rumahnya erin..sore nya gwe ketemu nyokap(mak) sama bokap(ayah) nya erin...baik sekali nyokap sama bokapnya erin...ternyata perbedaan itu bukanlah penghalang sebuah perhubungan...kami happy sekali sama family erin..baik sekali...kren!!!!(best).

Dan malamya telah terjadi satu peristiwa yang gwe pasti tidak akan pernah lupakan...McD adalah saksi kejadian lucu ini...semuanya gara2 perut gwe yang kualitasnya 2nd hand..berlari2 sama Yudhi mencari kamar kecil..at the same time erin fesal sama k irah sempat berfoto di belakang gwe sama Yudhi...mereka juga berjaya ngambil foto2 gwe di saat2 genting...hahaha....lucu sekali....pencarian kami ternyata sia2 kerna kamar kecil semuanya udah berkunci...terus kami naik mobil tapi jalan pula macet(jam) banget...Yudhi sama erin nyuruh kami turun ke mcd sambil berlari2 dan yudhi sama fesal nunggu dalam kereta yang still stuck dalam macet...maluuuuuuuuuuuu banget.....kami ketawa gak berenti ngenangkan saat lucu itu...capek kerna asek ketawa aja dalam mobil....

11/9/2006

masih lagi mau belanja..kali ini di mangga dua..yudhi jemput di rumah...kami jalan2 dari pagi hingga sore...menikmati hari2 terakhir sebelum pulang...sedih banget rasaya...malamnya kami hang out di tempat favourite erin sama band membernya (everybody loves irene)..tempatnya kayak central perk...senang baget makan2 sambil dengar music...ngobrol2..curhat(sesi curahan hati)..gwe k irah sama erin...aneh sekali perasaan ini..kami gak pernah kenal sebelum ini...hanya 6 hari perkenalan udah seakrab ini...teman2 erin turut rasa aneh melihat kami begitu close...erin bilang "gwe lebih suka meninggalkan dari ditinggalkan"..sedih gwe dengar...tapi rin..gwe lagi sedih ninggalkan lu...lu teman yang baik sekali rin...gwe janji akan ke sana lagi hanya untuk ketemu kamu..kita lepak di soho ya...


12/9/2006

hari ini harinya wisuda(convocation) erin!!!erin tidur hanya 3 jam kerna malamya kami lagi curhat dalam bilik...yudhi datang jemput dan kami dapat masuk ke hall dan nonton wisuda erin...gwe sama k ira duduk di sebelah nyokap sama bokapnya erin..ngobrol2...berfoto...gwe senag banget ...sebelum pulang ke rumah untuk ke bandara (airport)..nyokap sama bokapnya erin bawa kami ke gedung parlimen untuk berfoto...pulang ke rumah kami bersiap untuk ke bandara....sedih banget...after kami checked in...kami makan malam barang2 di mcd...sedih...sedih...amat sedih sekali mau berpisah....erin hanya diam..yudhi bilang erin sedih mau berpisah...tapi kami harus juga berpisah...........

to erin.yudhi,nisah,hany,fikri,kak dete,family erin,family kak dete,lela,ivan,dani,venus,beng,sama semua teman2 di jakarta dan bandung...gwe ucapkan makasih atas semuanya..atas persahabatan ini...makasih....kangen sama kalian.....

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kepada kak irah,

thanx sangat2 sbb jadi travel buddy yang sangat best...thanx akak for evythg...banyak lagi destinasi kita nanti...dah masuk list dah..best shopping ngan akak..walopon kaki kita luka..jalan senget..nak tergolek..tapi still boleh gelak2 sampai nak pengsan...thanx my lovely sis...

kepada fesal,

thanx sebab menghubung fad dgn persahabatan ni...kita kawan sampai bila2...jangan ambik hati eh ngn kata2 fad...walopon kita jarang jumpa..tapi takde ape yang boleh ubah frenship kita...thanx....

kepada aku,

terlalu banyak kasih sayang yang Tuhan bagi kat aku...walaupon dunia kita berbeza..tapi masih ada manusia yang bisa berhubung dan bersatu atas nama kemanusiaan dan kasih sayang....terima kasih Tuhan....

i have found me...things that ive been searching for all this while and before i face death...i thank God for placing me in this destiny...

there's so much to write here..but i would have to find the right time...i was in jakarta yesterday..and at this moment im in bandung...

with kak irah and fesal..after 5 months finally we are here...its such a blessing to be here..especially when i get to see kak dete and her family..erin,lela,hanny and fikri...a bunch of nice people..we barely knew each other..but now..they are always with us...enjoying each other's company..

when i have a non-stop conversation with kak dete..i started to realize something as we share the same sentiment..i found me...yes..i found me...and im so blessed....

finally..after 5 years of studies..this is the only thing that i can afford to give to my parents and my family...tears of joy...for everything that i did during these 5 years was nothing but for my family...thanx for every single soul who was there with me to celebrate my big day..before and during the event..it meant a lot to me...thanx a lot..for the dinner treat,for the flowers,for the teddy bears,hugs and kisses..and wishes...

last week had been so divine..for God taught me the meaning of true happiness...people in general might look around and judge...they might say that what they see is nothing but misery..but to me..happiness is not what the naked eyes see..its what the heart feels...when faith is the only answer to every question left unanswered...for faith is nothing but the most priceless gift from God...

i was so thrilled to be able to spend my time with people who are dear to me...and i felt so blessed to be able to feel this...words can never do justice to what God has given me...even though i just got a week but the feeling was so heavenly...

the night before my convo..my family and i gathered in bukit tinggi and before that..abang azli and i gat caught i 3 hours traffic jam..it was crawling and we were so tired but the moment we got to bukit tinggi..the tiredness was compensated...we could feel the cool breeze,surrounded by french castles with total silence from the hustle bustle of the city...i slept like a baby that nite and i had to get up arly to attend my convo...

when all the LLBs were lining up i could see the cheerful faces of all people around me..it really was the biggest time of our lives..at least for the time being..when all the hard work really paid off..

but there was one thing that i could never forget wsa what happened to me after i got my scroll from the sultan of pahang...on my way down the stage..i accidentally lefi my shoe on the stage and i was stunned and all that i could hear was the people in the hall laughing..i was screaaaming im my heart..God..what a memorable event of my life..i was so embarassed to death..

after the ceremony..on my way out..i was busy searching for mum and abah...luckily i didnt get lost in the crowd...my whole family gathered..we took ltsa pics..and abang and abang azli wre my personal photographer..i just grabbed them anytime i wanted whenever i felt like taking pics...

it was fun..i decided to stay in uia while my family had their next plan in kl...its just that i needed some time to spend with my frens before i got home...

life has been so wonderful...today i resume working..my head is still not in the right mode when i reached my office this morning..my master told my office mate that he really hoped that i'd be back soon..here i am..with files piling up...but its ok..learning can never be boring right..ehehe...hmm..last nite i received a call no +3044 and i was wondering who was trying to reach me..i picked up the phone and the first thing i heard was "..lengloi..ni hau ma"..i was confused..it was pakteh sham...i was screaming...because i raelly missed him..he congartulated me for my convo and he wanted to give me a dinner treat..we talked and talked..and weve reached a consensuss on visiting south africa for the world cup..my idea..haha...and he told me that he's gonna buy me the new mu jersey...pakteh sham also asked me to follow him to latvia for a vacation during winter and we could go skiing together coz he got many frens there...i couldnt wait to see him..

hmm..that's all for now i guess..and pne more thing..beside my convo..there's one achievement that im so proud of..i managed to take a good care and feed 5 kak irah's cats..whoa..i tell u..it was never easy..thanx to akk irah..for being such a lovely sister..and for understanding...

words can never describe how i feel right now...im so blessed and im running out of words to say to God how grateful i am..its been a great stay here...and im so afraid of letting go of this moment..the air is full of love..for every hugs and kisses by people who always make me smile will hold me in tears...

and all that i hope for and all that i can give back is my unfailing prayers..to keep those souls protected and blessed...

and also for the unforgettable moment by the window and the chili cheese fries on the table...=)

there was this one day i read in a news paper about an sms sent by "bapa prihatin" which says "ibu bapa sanggup menangis bila anak gagal menjadi penyanyi..tapi ibu bapa tidak menangis bila anak-anak tidak berminat dengan pelajaran"..true...

my house is just near kompleks pendidikan..and every day when im on my way to work at about 820 am..i can see many school boys who are supposed to be in school..loafing around...doing things they shouldn't be doing...and my wonderful morning got ruined by this unwanted phenomena...and now im working on geting a hotline police number--trying to help those who seem to forget their responsibility...sometimes it's sad to see our youngsters nowadays.. what the future is gonna be if this thing keeps on happening on and on..

same goes when i go to court..youngsters getting charged with crimes...and they still have the guts to drag along their parents...it's so frustrating..but this is reality...if only they know the value of life and how short this life is..and how eternal the next life would be...i guess things would be different...

to see youngsters in palestine seems intriguiung..with a slight hope of getting what the own..they still fight for what they believe in...and indeed heaven is right there waiting to bless their souls..but in our country...things have been easy..but still..,many people still take things for granted..particularly when time is running out...

i sent a message to ellia last nite..and she replied.."kalkfad n uia takdapat dipisahan.."-hmm..5 years there have taught me a lot..particularly on frenship...

life sometimes is full of stagnancy..but it really is up to u how to go through it...when u look around u..there are many things for u to smile about..

but life has been a little different lately..choices nad decisions...sounds more serious than usual..but all i wanna do is smile..dont really have much time to burden my head thinking of these issues..

but life has been good to me for the past few months eventhough i might look stucked here in my hometown..kinda true though..but i enjoy being here coz work has been good too..to get to know many people in this practice really is helping me through my chambering...

but there's one undeniable fact..that im physically separated with my good buddies..but the thought that counts right..even my thoughts of them can make me smile when i was driving alone to work..people might think that i might have a little cuckoo in my head..whatever..

really missed my frens..ellia n our dream futsal team..i wish they're gona make it..last nite an old fren form me dic kuantan asked me to watch him play basketball..aiyakk..too bad man..they lost though..hehehe..n now..talking to kak wana..on what she's gona buy capin for his bday!!!

hmm..tomorrow is my the spm trial exam..that means i got to monitor my brother 24/7//after he had learned the unforgettable drama the other day when i found his report card..i flipped out and mom and abang firhat just kept quiet to see this amuk scene...i was so mad and i cried...my bro just sat in the sofa..no words spoken..and abg firhat said"mulai hari ni..kakcik in charge everything pasal studies adik..abang tak mau dengaq any word from kakcik complaning about u"..my bro cried..and cried..felt guilty..well thats good..and abg firhat made him promise us to strive for the exam...eventually..now ive become the unpaid tutor who has to sacrifice my tv session...he really is testing my patience..a real hard case when it comes to studies..but i can see a difference now...i wish him all the best!!!

Masirah

Suara duka angin Gazza

Gegar jantung bumi kita

Nyawa anak di hujung senjata

Tangisan bonda hanya sia-sia

Masirah anak al-durrah

Netzarim bermandi darahBegitu megah mata memandang dusta

Masirah dalam amarah

Hilang kalam kebenaranKudrat alam hanya menjadi rebutan

Berbaris-barislah ke satu arah

Jangan sampai berpisah menyusun langkah

Mencari-cari erti kedamaian

Di dalam jiwa tersirat jawapan

Masirah anak al-durrah

Netzarim lambang perjuanganKita menanti tangan pembelaan

Masirah dalam amarah

Hilang kalam kebenaran

Kudrat alam hanya menjadi rebutan

Masirah anak al-durrah

Netzarim lambang perjuangan

Kita menanti (kita menanti) tangan pembelaan

Masih menanti tangan pembelaan

(m nasir/s amin shahab)

there's only one thing that i cant bear or even look at..news on human massacre...particularly on muslims by the zionists(la'natullahi alaikum)..long and old same issue according to some..but the tears and the suffering of those fighting in the name of their religion can never explain to us what it really feels...small children are dying and i cant barely look at this one palestinian boy on the front page of yesterday;s mewspapaer..

is there anything that we can do..some say..No..some dont even bother to spend a sec to give this sad story a thought...be practical..there's nothing we can do..some say...there's always something we can do...at least a single sec in our prayer..

my mom asked me..the never ending calamity in indonesia..what was the real reason..muslims being slaughtered with no sense of humanity...i guess the answer is with us...maybe we are being too complacent with what we have right now..in a peceful country some would say...just because we are not being tested like what the indonesians..or the lebanese or the iraqis or the palestinians..does that give us the right to just to think of ourselves and not doing anything..because of this selfishness our muslim brothers are being tested with these unbearable devastating stories..because of our sins...

we should be grateful because God stll gives us the chance to rectify the mistakes we've been doing..but up until now..nothing seems to change...history taught a lot..RELIGION..is the only reason people around the globe live until today..to be civilised...i still remeber what Lord Denning used to say...he said that religion will always be the basis of the law...but now the trend seems to suggest otherwise..our naked eyes can see how persistent certain individuals..graduate of uia in particular..fighting for this orthodox secular sentiment of segregating religion and law...how people in the name of modernity put aside the religion..indeed it is condecsending and unacceptable..people tend to mix up what is clearly forbidden in religion with modernity..
and how ignorant statement is freely made without any knowledge in religion...and this is reality...and people commit sins publicly and yet they have the guts to tell people that actually they are from a religious institution..intolerable...

and one more thing i would like to add..this thing has been botlling up my chest for quite some time..the issue of hijab..or tudung...almost everywhere now islam is being misunderstood..badly..purposely and with massive ignorance..even worse when the muslims themselves get in the picture to insult the religion..its almost everywhere and one simple example is when i watched globe trekker when the host of this program visited saudi arabia and uae and what she commented on wearing hijab or tudung by our muslim women..she basically said "it was so sad that these women are deprived of their freedom by having to wear the tudung"-i gto so upset to come to notice this kind of perspective..when im wearing tudung i never feel deprived or restricted by my religion..and same goes to those who wear tudung...just for a simple reason..its a sign of obedience to God's order and this is the only way we show that we're committed to our religion..

So..its a sin then being committed to religion???just because we are not being exactly the same as the westerners, that means our religion is depriving us????indeed the historical fact on imperialisme that took place ages ago was and is always right coz the westerners with their"beban orang putih" sentiment would do almost anything so that the whole world could be just like them at the expense of Our religion???wake up people...its still the same story we're being taught to ponder upon...

im not saying that im the right person to talk about obedience in religion because me myself i admit that there are alot of things that i need to change..but the least that we could do when it comes to religion..is to preseve the sanctity of this value--tHE RELIGION--What u do in ur life indeed is between u and God but please in the name of humanity stop goofing around with religion because whatever that we do will be answerable before our own Creator...and no one can ever escape...

first of all i would like to say a million thanx to my frens for such lovely wishes..thanx..it really is gonna make me cry..come to realize that there are many people who are praying for me...thanx..and for those who sent their wishes after midnite..i' like to apologize if i ever sent a groggy reply..still semi conscious as i slept early last nite...

to ati..thanx for the song..hmm...tyanx for knowing me inside out..cant help myself but to cry for the song..=(..

life has been wonderful lately..nice colleagues at work..yesterday when i opened my drawer i was screaming coz i found many guitar chords for my favourite songs..thanx to my office mate for having to search for them in dusty boxes under the bed..ehehe..

and i cant help myself but to laugh at asma's and nad's wishes today...and to my brother's sms yesterday and today..my sms to him yesterday''keselamatan pengharian jadiaanmu..semoga berpanjangi keumuran.."and he replied"terimalah kasihmu kerana mengucapinyer!''

and today i got an sms from him"hey,selamatkan pengharian jadimu hari ini,mudah-mudahkan pemanjangikeumuranmu lah!" and i replied"penerimaan pengasih diatas berucapanmu itu!"..

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"...forgive...for in forgiveness lies serenity...."10/07/06

this e mail by sir iqbal really tickles me..and it exactly and precisely support what i really think about football...as football is not just a plain football match..it involves human values...right under our nose...


. . . in football, the rule is unambiguously clear: your job is simply to put the ball in the net (opponent's net obviously) that's it, khalass.

for that you have to have a good player. if you have one (or two or many, or in a case like m'sia: none at all) and he is fit, that player must play. if he is playing and the game styill progressing, he must stay till end, unless his continuance of play is extremely unavoidably impossible. that's it, khalass

. . who to decide ? of course the coach!!! one needs to be an extreme idiot or a complete lunatic to replace a formidable player at crucial moments when one gaol lead is to be retained and protected. and sadly, yesterday, Argentinian coach was one of them. you brought out requilme and crespo in favour of less respected players, its suicidal. and a terrible suicide it was!!!

from the very beginning, the game was hailed as requilme vs ballack. it went just as expected. it could easily go either way and it happened that the skillful argentinian was overshadowing the well structured volksgeist of the German.

you look at klinsmann, ballack was limping for the last twenty minutes or so. he even requested for substitution. klinsmann paid no attention to the plea. why? because he knew, he is the essence of the team. he need not be fit but he has to be on the field. to take him out means to put the moral of the rest in total mess. cruel it may look but that's basic in football.

that stupid coach called requilme out at the time when he looked like running for another two hours without stopping in no slight trouble. German equalised and pushed the next gear while Argentinian could offer no more meaningful resistant.

i never interested in any of the games at all after the Iranian defeat, but yesterdys night was an exception.

jangan lupa, bagun pagi pergi chambering.

see you

What a memorable weekend. I came down to KL last Thursday to file in my petition for chambering. I stayed at ati’s coz I made my promise to spend the weekend with her. On early Friday morning I went to Masjid Jame’ to get all the things done.kinda worried coz I barely knew the exact location of the places that I had to go..the high ct,commissioner for oath and the bar council…indeed God is always with me when I need Him the most..i happened to see farhana on my way out of the erl counter…but a few seconds after that I lost her..i decided to have my breakfast first..just to kill time as I’d do anything to avoid the traffic-not on the road..but in the lrt..for crying out loud!!how could these people stand this every day????that makes me want to own my own private island someday!!haha..even if its only in my dreams..ahaha!!somehow my instinct kept telling me to call farhana on the phone just to tell her that I just saw her..my luck!!!her office was just around the places that I needed to go..she practically brought me to these places..i was so happy for that..i met hida and raina..unplanned reunion…after I got all the things done..i have to wait for about two hours coz asni wanted to have lunch with me..but I had to wait until she’s done with her work at the Malaysian bar…

On Saturday..ati and me went to tim’s wedding..it was a garden wedding..awesome..i met hida,munah,dilla,ema;asma,syitah,pakdi,aja,shue,lily and sasha and sir iqbal too..it felt so good to gather and talk and talk and laugh..like we usually did before..talking for hours..even in a kenduri..hmm..no one could help it I guess..and tim’s photographer kept coming to our table..he took lots and lots of pics…on our way back..after four hours being there..we saw a playground next to where ati parked her car..and we decided to go and play with the swings… it felt so good…just like when we were little kids..

And on Sunday..ati and me went to visit mar,,she just got a baby girl..baby humaira is soooooo adorable..she’s so cute.and I could just spend hours looking at her while holding her in my arms..she’s such a nice baby…no wonder why I dreamt about her last nite..

And on Monday as I stayed all alone by myself, as ati had to go to work..
mourning over my orange boys..Holland had to go home after losing to Portugal..i felt so bad about it..but football is just like life..even heroes have the right to bleed right..but the bottom line is,,they’ve tried their best..and the match statistic proved it all…it doesn’t matter if u win or lose..as long as you fight to the end..that’s what really counts…coz we are all fighters as that what makes a man a MAN..in the evening ili and mimi came over and we had dinner together..another episode of non stop talking and laughing…

hmm..and not to forget..mom kept calling..’’when are u coming back?’’..indeed time is not always on my side right now..there’s still a bunch of close frens I didn’t get to spend my time with..im sori guys!!i wish I could stay longer but I couldn’t…and I promise ill meet u guys the first chance I get yah..coz I love u guys so much..thanx to my choco top-dome buddy-ati and to all my lovely frens!!

[COMMENTARY]
On the BeachbyRonnie D. Lipschutz
Bombs, rockets, and artillery shells don’t always go where you aim them or want them to go. Sometimes, however, where they go may serve a political purpose.
This past Friday, some sort of projectile went astray at a beach in Gaza, killing at eight people—six from one family—out to enjoy a day in the sun. We know who killed them; it is less clear what killed them or why. Some thought the wayward shells might have come from an Israeli gunship offshore or from an aircraft. Israeli military officials explained that the deaths were accidental—“collateral damage”— and that the wayward artillery shells were meant to deter the firing of Qassam rockets into Israel. Official sources regretted harm to any Palestinian civilians. But the damage was done. Eight people were dead and Hamas declared it would resume attacks on Israel. Perhaps this was not an accident.
One irony of this episode is that the Qassam rockets fired by Palestinians into Israel are made locally in workshops, notoriously inaccurate, short range and cause few, if any, casualties or damage. Mostly, they have nuisance value. Israel’s reaction, by contrast, is powerful and deadly. It has produced steady stream of Palestinian casualties, both “militants” in cars and houses and civilians who are merely in the way. Predictably, such killings cause resentment, anger and more rockets, all beyond the control of either President Abbas or the Hamas government. Israel can then argue that violence is all the Palestinians know and there is no one among them with whom to negotiate, even as it ensures, with its repeated attacks, that there will be no Palestinians willing to risk negotiations for fear of assassination.
Such an outcome, we might speculate, is precisely what the new government of Israeli Prime Minister Ehud Olmert seeks. Why? In the recent elections to the Israeli Knesset, competing parties fought over the so-called legacy of former Prime Minister Ariel Sharon, now three months into a coma from which he is unlikely ever to awake. Over the past few years, Sharon decided to pursue the physical separation of Israel and Palestine (what the Israelis call “hitkansut,” or a “coming together”), building a wall between the two—which takes in substantial portions of the West Bank—and orchestrating a unilateral Israeli withdrawal from Gaza. This policy was violently opposed by many members of the Likud Party, to which Sharon had belonged for decades, as renunciation to title to all of the land between the Jordan River and the Mediterranean Sea. In response, Sharon formed a new party, Kadimah, which he hoped could form a new government empowered to continue the process of separation.
No doubt, Sharon and his colleagues were hoping that the Palestinians would fall to fighting among themselves as well as continue to attack Israel, making it all the easier to finalize separation and impose a “final” border as a fait accompli.
Kadimah won the election, although receiving many less votes than predicted and has formed a government in coalition with several other supportive parties. This new government will complete the wall dividing Israel from the Palestinian lands, and will try to move several tens of thousands of West Bank settlers out of their current locations into communities on the Israeli side of the wall. A majority of Jewish Israelis support this plan although, if and when it happens, it is likely to be fairly contentious procedure and even trigger Israeli-on-Israeli violence. Many predicted such clashes during the withdrawal from Gaza, but that turned out to be fairly peaceful. Still, Gaza has never been as important as the West Bank in Zionist ideology and religious belief, and the West Bank settlers have promised to resist with all their ability.
This is where a certain amount of Palestinian violence might serve the interests and goals of the Olmert government. Renewed bombings in Israeli cities will highlight the continued risks of engagement with Palestine as well as the vulnerability of settlers on the wrong side of the wall and the high costs of keeping soldiers out there to protect them. After all, if bombs can be detonated in Tel Aviv and Jerusalem, given how well defended they are, imagine how much easier it will be to set off bombs in the West Bank. Just as in Gaza, the pullback will be rationalized as a “security measure,” which will satisfy the Israeli electorate and leave the Palestinians with those few remaining pieces of territory that no one in Israel wants.
Yet, the Sharon solution will hardly put an end to this war or to civilian deaths. In a very real sense, the growing discord among various Palestinian factions is directly attributable to Israeli policy, especially over the past decade. Seeking perfect safety, Israel continually made impossible demands of the Palestinian Authority. Thinking that it would be easier to deal with a splintered enemy than a unified neighbor, Israel thought it could manipulate the Palestinian Authority into an alliance of convenience against Hamas and Jihad. Now, facing the consequences of its cynical strategies, Israel is trying to wash its hands of the mess it did so much to create.
No doubt, the Israelis will find that walls are only walls and that they can be surmounted rather easily. The violence within Palestine will not remain contained but will spill over into Israel. More critically, perhaps, sooner or later the Palestinians will unite in the face of Israel’s cynical exploitation. Then, as real war spreads from the Jordan to the Mediterranean Sea, not only the beach will be a dangerous place for families and others.

fadiah, you read this if you have the time

i spent almost one hour talking to myself about it
The end of euphoria
Monday, May 22, 2006The massacre at the Council of State has raised many questions that will haunt Turkey for a long time. In fact these questions have been lingering for decades, but we tended to ignore them in the midst of the euphoria caused by the economic and political stability of the past three years. Doðu Ergil
The massacre at the Council of State has raised many questions that will haunt Turkey for a long time. In fact these questions have been lingering for decades, but we tended to ignore them in the midst of the euphoria caused by the economic and political stability of the past three years.
The first question was whether Turkey's economic growth was sustainable without narrowing the ever-increasing national debt arising from the gap between importation and exportation. Put another way, could economic growth be sustained on borrowed money without increasing investment and the volume of production? The second question was whether the political foundations of the republic could be sustained without sufficient modernization and reducing the tension between the modern and traditional segments of society. The last question can be broken to into two further questions: 1-- Can secularism, so far sustained by authoritarian ways and means, persist without incorporating the traditional social cohorts that have remained outside the modern core of society? 2-- Shall we protect secularism at the price of relinquishing democracy and social reconciliation on the basic characteristics of the regime? Indeed, we have refrained from loudly and clearly asking ourselves these critical questions. Now is the time, but we are confused and angry to see the detrimental effects of our neglect. Instead we are watching feelings boiling over as the election of the next president of Turkey approaches. There is a strong lobby that wants to deny Prime Minister Recep Tayyip Erdogan the presidency of the republic, not only because his wife wears a turban (although that is enough) but also because he represents an obscurantist section of the Turkish population that is believed to prefer a religious regime over a secular one.
Before any further analysis, let us look into the background and identity of the assassin who wreaked havoc at the Council of State, killing one and wounding more than half a dozen of the high judges. He is from Bingol, a southeastern town populated mainly by Kurds. The basic source of income of the town is drug smuggling and selfless aid from a family member who works in Europe and sends money to dependents back home. Family size is around eight persons. There is not a single factory in operation or job opportunities other than government employment. The town, although a provincial capital, is no more than an oversized village. There is not a single restaurant that serves alcoholic beverages except the police guesthouse. Yet alcohol consumption is very high, according to unofficial accounts of security personnel who serve in this very conservative and religious town.
Alpaslan Arslan, the assassin, seems to have found comfort and evaded an identity conflict in Istanbul, where he studied law. He apparently was lured into and socialized with ultranationalist Turkish youth organizations where he, among other status-seekers from small towns, was groomed to “tame” the “godless communists.” His bio has many references to attacks on left-wing university students with clubs, axes and knives. He has recently been identified (and has confessed to) as having bombed the Kemalist daily Cumhuriyet in Istanbul before committing his crime in Ankara. The organization he is affiliated with at present, the Union of Patriotic Forces, is the reformed Turkish Revenge Brigade (TIT), which was responsible for the shooting of Akin Birdal several years back when he was the president of the Turkish Human Rights Association (IHD). Among the members of the former gang were petty security personnel just as the new one harbors a former officer discharged from the army. Were the TIT members acting on their own initiative or were they the cogs in a wider, shadier machine? No one knew until this day. In a country where the organizational affiliations of attempted assassins of incumbent prime ministers (Bulent Ecevit in the late 1970s and Turgut Ozal in the early 1980s) still remain unknown, such questions are irrelevant.

Conflict of values:
The latest attack on members of one of the highest courts of the country, the Council of State, which deals with the most important matters of administration with appellate jurisdiction, has revealed a deep-rooted tension between two sets of values --the traditional values at the heart of which lie religion or religious interpretation of worldly matters or human conduct on the one hand, and the values of the more modern and secular social cohorts that are (or see themselves) as the founders and guardians of the regime on the other. The traditional-modern divide found its reflection in the debate as to whether religion would find its way into the public arena or not. In fact, all this ado was a power struggle of the more parochial and traditional (peripheral) social groups with those that are more modern and Western oriented with a claim that they have created the modern secular state. The former expresses its identity in more traditional terms and refer to religion as an ideological tool for both social solidarity and political mobilization as well as the definition of an ideal polity.
The wish to fashion law after religious doctrine is less a desire to establish a fundamentalist regime than create a world in which they would feel comfortable, with their parochial and non-modern ways of thinking and living. Yet their insistence on clinging on to their traditional practices and symbolism fuels the suspicions of the secular groups who see the Justice and Development Party (AKP) government as the vanguard of a wider conspiracy of fundamentalist takeover. Erdogan's meaningless insistence on penalizing adultery, which almost aborted Turkey's membership claim to the EU only two years ago, the party's constant advances in legalizing the wearing of headscarves (turban) while declaring that it is the “wish of Allah to cover women” (the Turkish Constitution prohibits use of religious symbolism in official institutions and transactions) and provocative rhetoric of the parliament speaker, who does not try to hide his desire to enact laws with religious inspiration have led to the raising of eyebrows many a time. But recently, the scandal born out of the publicity of an AKP deputy with multiple wives (an aberrant violation of the secular civil code), beating his wife and not even been reprimanded by the party organs despite clauses to this effect in the party bylaws was the straw that broke the camel's back. The AKP deputy was not reprimanded by his party, and even the female members of the AKP -- including the prime minister's wife -- remained silent, leaving the poor woman to face her humiliation and isolation alone. This case was a litmus test for the AKP in which it failed morally and publicly to produce a modern and secular presidential candidate
The recent distasteful events were further confounded by a sudden devaluation that plunged the value of the Turkish lira by more than 10 percent, further adding to feeling of a crisis in the making. The combined effect of the events created fertile ground for provocation, and soon enough the provocation came in the form of an attack on one of the most important institutions of the republic that has a critical role in upholding the secular regime through its jurisdiction. The perpetrator is also a lawman (an attorney at law) but more importantly a militant who has been used before to keep dissidents in line. His murder weapon was a sophisticated pistol that is imported to be used by security personnel and which bears the same brand name (Glock) as the one that killed a Catholic priest a few months ago in Trabzon. In that case the assassin was an underaged boy who amazed even his parents by his deed. Who is hiring and using these thugs?
All right, the wish to prevent Erdogan from becoming the next president of Turkey is strong in some circles. Is it stronger than the well-being of the country, which is about to lose its stability and slide back into uncertainty? Is this patriotism? If it is, it must be an odd one based on the love of country but hatred for its citizens. Since those who plan these murders will not change their deadly tactics, to force the AKP to an early election and ultimately out of office, the burden is on the AKP government to wind down the tension and not to push the party's conservative values and practices as a way of life that will be overseen by only AKP-minded people. Insistence on replacing an independent-minded president and installing a like-minded governor at the central bank have caused a credibility gap in the economy that has had negative repercussions to this day. The turban issue is another case that can and will be abused by the AKP's opponents that will escalate the crisis until the calling of early elections, which they hope will bring them to power. But by looking at alternatives (political parties in opposition), one sees cloudy days ahead.

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[COMMENTARY]

The Constitution of Empire: Who Rules, Whose Rules?byRonnie D. Lipschutz

Since September 11, 2001, the Bush Administration’s lawyers in the U.S. Department of Justice have been writing the new constitution of the global American empire.
This is not a constitution like many countries have: it has not been produced by any kind of constitutional convention or representative assembly. It is not subject to review by a supreme court. It does not balance power between branches of government. No, the new constitution of empire is a mostly-secret set of legal briefs that rationalize the U.S. President’s authority to act with impunity around the world. This constitution has been hard at work at Guantanamo Bay, Abu Ghraib, and the CIA’s black detention centers around the world as well as in the U.S. National Security Agency’s surveillance of electronic communications between American citizens and the Rest of the World. And the contradictions raised by the constitution of empire are reflected in the struggles among the White House, Congress, and Courts over the extent and prerogatives of executive authority. The paradox is that President Bush and his colleagues are asserting an imperial authority that is nowhere subject to the constraints of the U.S. Constitution, although this point has not yet been recognized by Courts or Congress.
The lawyers of the U.S. Justice Department did not set out to craft a constitution for empire, however much the plans of the Pentagon, National Security Council, and the Project for the New American Century pointed in that direction. Instead, Justice’s efforts developed after 9/11 in response to the exigencies of prosecuting the so-called Global War on Terror (GWOT) and, perhaps perversely, attempting to establish the basis for actions and policies whose constitutional legality might be challenged in and overturned by American courts. In doing so, those lawyers—the most notorious is John Yoo, currently on the faculty at the Boalt Hall Law School of the University of California,Berkeley—have laid the foundation for a legal order that transcends and, indeed, displaces international law and its reliance on sovereign states for implementation and enforcement: the Constitution of Empire.

How did this happen? After September 11, 2001, according to many pundits and scholars, “the world changed.” The use of jetliners to destroy the World Trade Center and damage the Pentagon were not only unprecedented in any number of ways, they also demonstrated the degree to which determined individuals could use the technologies of everyday life to mortally threaten America’s global interests and security. Attributing the attacks to members of Osama Bin Laden’s Al Qaeda—a name not used by the network itself—based in Taliban-ruled Afghanistan, the Bush Administration quickly decided to invade and overthrow that government, hoping as well to catch and kill as many jihadists as possible. From the outset of the GWOT, however, the United States was faced with a political dilemma: while national self-defense is permissible under international law, this extends, strictly speaking, only to attacks by one state against another. That the events of 9/11 constituted such an attack was by no means self-evident.

Why should this matter? After all, in the case of Afghanistan, it was evident that the Taliban was offering shelter to and receiving various benefits from Al Qaeda. What was not clear, however, was whether Bin Laden’s network was a foreign policy tool of the government or, instead, an autonomous player running its own international affairs. Nonetheless, faced with American determination to retaliate, and fearful of rendering the UN completely ineffectual, most of the members of the United Nations accepted U.S. claims of self-defense Thus, the United States invaded Afghanistan in October, 2001 with the intention of capturing the masterminds of 9/11 and, at the time, it seemed as though regime change and occupation would facilitate this goal. In retrospect, we can see that overthrowing the ruling regime in Afghanistan—whose role in the attacks was peripheral, at best—had only a minor impact on the jihadis. Hundreds or thousands of individuals were captured and imprisoned, to little effect. Five years later, Bin Laden remains at large—perhaps in Pakistan—the new Afghani regime is incapable of exercising control over the country, and Iraq is the new global center of terrorism (as indicated by the U.S. State Department’s recent annual report).

And what about all of those prisoners, many of whom seem to have been haplessly swept up in the American dragnet? Here is where we run into a serious legal difficulty. States are considered responsible for the disciplining and punishment of those who live within their sovereign territory, and it is individuals who are held culpable in national courts of law for the crimes they (may) have committed against states and the public order. Legally speaking, individuals cannot “declare war” on states; only states can do so. Hence, attacks such as those of 9/11 might better be regarded as criminal acts, as opposed to acts of war, therefore subject to the jurisdiction of domestic courts or the International Criminal Court.

From the political perspective, however, the Bush Administration could not afford to treat the attacks as criminal acts, lest it suffer attacks by both Democrats and neo-conservatives. Moreover, waiting on police and military forces to capture and then try such criminals would lead to interminable delays in exercising justice. Hence, the United States arrogated to itself the right of “hot pursuit,” imprisonment, interrogation, torture, and punishment. To provide a legal basis for these actions, the Justice Department lawyers declared that international law applied only to the citizens of states at war, and that the prisoners caught in Afghanistan and elsewhere did not fit this category. They were “illegal” combatants under the laws of war and not subject to any of the provisions of the Geneva Conventions or other appropriate international legal instruments. In effect, they were nationals of no place and under the legal jurisdiction of no one—except, in this instance, their warders.

Since 2001, a considerable number of such individuals, as well as those caught up by the sweeps have been imprisoned on these terms. They are “subjects” of an imperial executive, living in non-sovereign spaces over which no state has legal jurisdiction (e.g., Guantanamo, which is on Cuban territory but not under Cuban sovereignty, occupied under an indefinite lease that Cuba refuses to recognize yet, according to the Furthermore, the Bush Administration has asserted its legal authority to surveil, arrest and imprison in such spaces any individual who it deems a threat to American interests, wherever in the world these interests might be located. Of course, many of these people are arrested locally and rendered globally, so to speak.
Will the constitution of empire become the basis for the next world system? For the moment, many governments dislike the United States’ flouting of international law, but have little way to oppose it and think they benefit from “getting bad guys off the street.” By the time they recognize fully what is happening, it will probably be too late to undo imperial law and the policies and practices it has brought into being. Nor will anything change on January 21, 2008, when a new U.S. President takes office: he or she will happily follow in the footsteps of George W. Bush—as well as all of his predecessors back to 1946—in establishing the global legal footing for the American Empire.
Ronnie D. Lipschutz is Professor of Politics at the University of California, Santa Cruz (rlipsch@ucsc.edu).

“Sometimes justice makes its decisions considering the identity of people. This says something about those who are in a position of applying the laws. I am not comfortable with this situation; if someone deceives the prime minister this is not a crime, but when this happens to another person it is a crime!”-Turkish Prime Minister Recep Tayyip Erdogan.

it's been two weeks im here..yesterday i told nadia that its always true that we have so many things to do with so little time..and its true that all the good things will have to end...but the memories will not fade and that makes life even more wonderful..i guess..

yesterday i had lunch with nadia asma and sarah..we talked about so many funny things..after that asma sent me to kulliyyah as i wanted to print out some materials for my research..sir iqbal was there..we discussed bout so many things...we talked about surah al an'am and he gave me an article that he wrote for his usrah group...in that verse Allah made an equation between men who refuse to acknowledge the truth with livestock animals...indeed this surah is very familiar to most of us..but, the question is..why does Allah equate them with livestock animals instead of wild animals?and what makes it different?these qs were answered yesterday...ill post the detailed discussion on this some other day insyaAllah...and the discussion went on and on..from this verse to the political situation in turkey..the history of the ottoman empire..the nasionalist and secularist movement in turkey...concept of hikmah and tawakkal which is based on my own personal experience..kinda funny though..and last but not least..his never ending interesting stories about his life and experince...from hitchhiking and his handsome macho turkish frens...eheh..

like i said earlier..good things will have to end..it makes me feel a little melancholic today..i cant stay here forever...ill be back soon then...ill meet sir iqbal this evening to give him his keys and then ill go to asma's house to spend some time with her family..and on friday we'll go to radzlan's house-kenduri..and on saturday ill be meeting my kisas frens-reuinion and on sunday and monday i'd have to spend some time with ellia and zai...only then ill be back home...:(...i know that there are some friends who'd be dissapointed coz i cant spend my time with them..im so sorry...i feel really bad about it.. i have to go back coz muy mom has been asking me to come home...

insyaallah..we'll be meeting again..hmm...sir iqbal asked me yesterday..''bile lagi nak datang?'' and i was just smiling coz i dont have the answer...and only time will tell..

what a splendid weekend in redang...me and my friends had so much fun in redang...it felt so wonderful getting close to nature with zero connection to the outside world...seriously we never thought that the place was very private...only a specific number of tourists are allowed to be there at one time..basically,3 days stay over there made us recognize every one who was on the beach...

we basically did nothing but enjoying ourselves...i spent hours lying down at the hotel balcony..enjoying the sea view...it felt like heaven as all that i could hear was the sound of nature..we were swimming for hours and we got the oppurtunity to do snorkeling at the marine park..indeed words would never suffice to describe the feeling of serenity and tranquility..hmm..but it was a little funny that we were the only malays there..we also had the chance to play futsal on the beach..very challenging i would say...

just wanna thank kak wana,ellia,zue,fira,and hani for making this vacation unforgetable..it was smashing!!!

it's been 5 days im here in uia..ive done my clearance yesterday..i met asma and nad...we had lunch together..we couldnt hang out much longer coz every one was having the same problem...coz suddenly after 5 years of studies our parents are so reluctant to let us do things that we used to do before..the freedom has GONE!!!my mom just called..''lepas balik redang terus balik umah k''..and i was like..''ayah asma jemput p umah dia..''-i guess that's the best excuse to extend my stay here..if i go back now..it would be another session of interrogatories by the family members...

i met sir iqbal yesterday to pass him the cds that i bought in medan..a non stop conversation on various things...apparently he is the one who's been very supportive of me with this idea of exploring new things while im still young!!yay!!!

i just miss my frens here..to many things to do..hmm..just cant wait to have a nice vacation in redang....cant wait also to have ex5/11 reunion next weekend!!!

its been two weeks at home...ive been doing nothing beside watching tv..everyone is busy with work..i got to talk to my family only at night when we watched tv or have dinner..just me adik makkakak and abah..for the past first week ive been like..''boringnya..boringnya..''..i guess mom had it enough then she told abah..''esok jom p office..blajaq computer programming ngan kak pija..''i was like..''tak mau la abah..bukan nak guna sangat''-actually its just a way of escape haha...

but thankGod everyday my phone needs to be charged..coz it keeps on ringing..thanx to my frens-and suddenly..when im so passionate about traveling the world..i got so many invitations from various groups of fren-ajakpegi situla..sinilah..basically bercuti...cant wait to go to redang--yay!!its snorkeling time..this august im planning to go to jakarta..the ticket has been booked...and my mom hasnt got to know bout this..ill tell her when its about time..like always..

this saturday ill go to uia..to settle some stuff..i can meet kakwana and my other roomies..yay!!miss u guys soosooomuch...i promise we'll spend our time together k..i cant wait to see asma and nad too..too many things to catch up!!!yay!!!..and mom starts asking, interogating i might say..''lama ka nakturun kl..nakwat ape..dah abes clearance nakpegi mane plak..lepas redang terus balik ke?thousands of qs..ehehe..i just can smile...this time it has to be a little discreet..sori mak!!!

medan trip..

How should I begin? Hmm..a week in medan obviously meant a lot to me..and also to my travel frens-TONI,ADI AND DYA…thanx to u guys for making this journey unforgetable!!!

It’s been a great experience to be able to explore new things yourselves..basically this trip was not really planned as I only took 3 minutes to say yes to toni when she sent me an sms telling me about this trip…beside toni..i barely knew the other two-adi and dya even though we were studying in the same kulliyyah..but the trip has brought us closer..more than just frens as we officially declare ourselves as siblings...

Its been a great experience as when we reached there..we were totally strangers as we had to do things on our own as we had no frens or people we know in medan…before our journey..we got so many advice telling us to be careful because the chance to be deceived was inevitable… toni insists me to write about our motto along the journey..that made us survivors till the last day..’single-mingle-humble-gamble’—I know it sounds funny but yet very inspiring…as we got this motto when we were walking from one place to another…

I have to admit that medan is not like what u can see in London…its very much different even if it is to be compared to Malaysia…I guess what we have seen there made the experience even priceless..i got to see things right under my nose..how things are very much different from what we usually see…this is what we call LIFE..the people there..they have to struggle to earn a living…to live a life..

The roads were extremely busy with vehicles…one thing that really caught my eyes was..the people REALLy like to honk….a lotttttt…all the time..its as if they really enjoyed doing that..and when other people got honked..they were just cool about it..we were so mad in the beginning as it was a real sound pollution..but then we got used to it as days passed by…

We went to almost all the places there by walking..pretty amazing coz we barely do that in our country…there was this one day we wanted to go to sun plaza by walking..when we asked for direction, the people were like..”bisa jalan..tapi jauh bangat..”..we thought that it wasn’t that far so we continued walking…when we were to cross the road..everyone of us would be running like cipan while screaming..i guess u have to be there to see how it feels to cross the road…it was like acting in mission impossible movie..ahaha…after about two hours walking finally we reached there..we got soooo exhausted but we couldn’t help ourselves but to laugh hysterically while enjoying root beer…it was like walking from uia to jusco wangsa maju..it was crazy..what an experience…

Me and adi were so into buying cds,vcds and dvds…its half of the price here...during our stay here we only ate at fast food restaurant..it was so cheap..we only paid 5 ringgit per person for pizza hut…
Before I forget.. I got to watch iwan fals live on tv..what a beautiful coincidence..perfect combination of music..and someone in birmingham got so jealous about it..ehehe…

Hmm..there was this one incident that I will never forget during our last two days in medan..apparently we were running out of cash due to extreme shopping..but toni was our savior as she brought with her a credit card..dya was so busy shopping..suddenly when she wanted to pay the machine was out of service…it was kinda humiliating coz none of us had enough cash at that moment..it just so happened that we couldn’t find the nearest money changer that day…what a memory….what makes me even happier is that I got to buy a book written by Soh Hok Gie-indeed he was a great reformist… no wonder why this book and the film are banned in our so-called democratic country…I also bought GIE-a movie about Soh Hok Gie-Nicholas Saputra won the best actor in this film…”lebih baik diasingkan daripada menyerah pada kemunafikan.’’-Gie.

To wrap everything up, I guess this trip really taught me a lesson..lesson about life…to see how things are so hard for other people around us..and how lucky we are to be able to learn this lesson…the real meaning of poverty…I could see how hard things are for the people over there…its true as in reality the riches are getting richer and the poors are getting poorer..and yet we have the guts to talk about humanity and dignity…its very frustrating to see such a big nation has to suffer in poverty as a result of corruption…it’s a fact that everyone has to admit..corruption..it happens everywhere..and how devastating its effect to humanity…and a big question to us..have we contributed even a little to remedy this devastating phenomena…or we are just too busy to think about this as we have so many things to do in our lives..enjoying our life in luxury..and we don’t even bother to look at people who are really in need….now I realize that traveling is not just about pampering ourselves with comfort and luxury,,but it is for us to start to look around us and start thinking about the reality of life…

i still cant believe that ive just finished my studies..here in uia...last nite we had law grad dinner and everyone had fun..after the dinner..every one was reluctant to go back..we were chatting and taking lotsa pics outside the ballroom...and without realzing it..it was almost one oclock in the morning..we prayed isya' and i drove all the way to uptown...with adib asma and farhana..we chatted until subuh...

this afternoon me and my roomies went to jusco to have lunch and to buy things for our bbq party...we had so much fun tonite..

i just dont know what to write..all that i have in mind is that i still cant believe the fct that four years of studies have ended..eventually..

im gonna meet mom tomorrow with all my stuff to be brought back to my hometown..im staying hereuntil monday coz im going to medan with toniand the gang...its vacation time!!!

the first week of short sem ill be here again coz ive got to go to redang with kak wana and the gang..its time for vacatION!!!AGAIN!!

i might be here during short semester..helping sir iqbal for his reseach..ill be able to join his jamming session again!!!wahla....

june..smashing world cup!!cant miss it...

when will i start my chambering then?only God knows when...just wanna live life to the max..doing things that i like...basically living my own life..not other's...

im just gonna miss all the best things that ever happened to me while i was here in uia...farewell to all..all that i can promise is to cherish all that i have..while im stll here...