fade out into the stars

when i started chambering...the moment that i anticipate the most is weekends..i love weekends..because all that i do on weekends is nothing but doing nothing...but this last weekend really bugged me.. a lot..because ive got two hearing..that was still ok but the scariest part of it was the hearing was before the most feared magistrate in alor star...and i happened to appear before him most of the time...

when i was on my way to the court today..i could literally feel the butterflies in my stomach...for the first case it went well as i recorded consent judgment..but the second case was really creeping me out..luckily the prosecuting officer was on leave so this 'bidan terjun p.o' was asking for another date for hearing cases..and i was like "yay....no hearing..."as the magistrate gave another date to other lawyers so that kinda convinced me that he'd give another date to me..when my case was called up..he asked for stand down and i was like.."o God...im screwed today.."out of the sudden kak prema called me to see the magistrate in his chamber..and i was so freaking out..when i got into the the chamber..he was like "so fadiah..what's the deal with this case"..and all the anxiety went away..i was explaining from a to z and then my client was called up to discuss on plea bargaining...everything went well...i was so happy that this case was settled today...and i was so happy that the magistrate was giving me directions as he realized that im still reading in chambers.....when i got into the chamber he was asking where i graduated from...and suddenly i realized that this is the time when you can be proud of your alma matter and it's all depending on you how to let people see the product of the institution....

and the lesson that ive learned today.."we know not what God has written for us...sometimes we only see bad things and we see nothing but sorrow...but as we step ahead..then we'll realize that all the good things are there...we have to feel the sadness as to appreciate how happiness feels like"...