Thursday, November 30, 2006

Then Almitra spoke again and said, "And what of Marriage, master?"
And he answered saying:
You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.
You shall be together when white wings of death scatter your days.
Aye, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.
But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.
Love one another but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.
Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.
Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together, yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow.
(The Prophet-chapter 3)


indeed Kahlil's work is always much as im happy to see people decide to be in the bond of marriage..i have to admit that my own perspective of it rather invites criticism about me being too feminist (i guess the debate on this is way too extensive)..well i take it literally...perhaps im too devastated to what's been happening to the world...perhaps im being too paranoid about things...perhaps i concede to reality way too easy than other people who deny that they're being in denials....but please dont get me wrong on this...perhaps im being scared of what is real..i dont know..i dont think i have the answers...

but there's one thing i wana let the world know...i never have doubts in one thing...there's always something in nothingness..and to those who have found it...they have found the answers...i used to have a chat with my sister after she got married..

me: kakak takut tak to infidelity and unfaithfulness?
my sister: takut..
me: you got married anyway
my sister: all you need to do is to believe.

and i guess she's found something in nothingness...and im more than happy to see her happy in her marriage....

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

besides having a good laugh every time i watch everybody loves raymond..last nite was a blast...i really really had a good laugh over:

i) Chelsea seri sbb pakai ilmu tanam mata kucing

ii) ilmu kucing mengaum

iii) our nasyid band that sings " tadribul awal tadribul akhir tadribul tsalis tadributh thani yalla yalla shmashal".....


Thursday, November 23, 2006


its been a wonderful aid held a seminar on criminal litigation..compulsory on all andrew paul was the speaker...its been very educational as it involved the issue of criminal justice...when he said that the principle "man is innocent until proven guilty" is only a mere saying in legal people tend to prejudge other people's act before he's given a fair opportunity to a fair trial...but this is really an awakening me myself, an imperfect human being tend to do at times...

and i guess because of the nature of human beings of being imperfect, that gives more reason for us to be under the guidance of God...that's basically what Religion is all not punitive and retaliatory..and to show how much God loves us that He made this right path for us..just waiting to be followed as the end destination is infinite...

i read the star news paper today..there was one anonymous letter that really caught my attention..its regarding the ill treatment the US immigration had given particularly on Malaysian citizen traveling into the that letter he/she stated how devastated he was as Malaysians were being interrogated for hours and they missed the connecting flight...and this situation occurred he/she is working with one of the US corporation, this is to him/her very appalling situation...and at the end of the letter..he stated that..whenever their people are our beaches or in our cities..we are being so nice to give them smiles which we could hardly get even before we get into their country...

my conclusion is simple..i strongly believe that the guy/woman whop wrote the letter must be a Muslim...that's the only reason that proves the point...because nowadays, being a Muslim, is a crime...and being a devoted Muslim is terrorism...and being a woman who wears jilbab to cover her aurah is a suicide bomber....

yet, we still refuse to defend the only thing that we have..that is the Religion...we'd die to live and look like "them" the expense of our own conscience...and look what's happening around us...they dont even bother to grant you the freedom and liberty that ure entitled to..they dont even bother to follow ur customs..they dont even bother to recognize the differences...and they even bother to stop labeling us as terrorists...and yet..we are so proud of their backwardness towardS the very basic principle of human right..that is conviction to the Religion...

and they have the nerve to label Muslims (devoted Muslims- use this term as thers's a titanically gigantic difference between Muslims and devoted Muslims) as terrorists whereas they are the ones who have committed the most appalling crimes against humanity..that is "RACISM"-particularly towards devoted Muslims...

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

"GOD....please save me...." (me talking in my prayers)..

as far as i can remember..this is my first time being seriously sick...flu..headache...dizzy..all in one package...a great deal eh...there's always a blessing behind all this...

last nite i could barely sleep..i was awake at 3.20 am..went downstairs to take ponstan...when i was on my way up, my dad opened his door and he was looking around..maybe he thought that bad nasty guys had broken into our house...luckily i was fully sober and i said.."cek ni.." least i know if something bad would ever happen to father would do anything to see his family safe and sound...

as far as i father was not really involved in asking me to follow the normal parental rules when i was growing so glad that my parents really believe in me..because its all about trust...even when i was in my university..he never asked me to do this or that..when i got the results of my exam..i showed them to him and he'd be smiling and kissed my forehead...

and now all that i wanna do is to make them proud of be a good daughter (even though i know ive been kinda sensitive case to them)...ehehe...and nothing else really matters...

Monday, November 13, 2006

last week had been so hard for me...i gave up on something...and i felt so devastated about felt so miserably wrong..particularly when i dont even know how to tell people what i what is always said...there'll be rainbow after the rain...

sometimes..i always feel that no one is able to comprehend what is on my mind...i guess i was wrong...i told particularly these three specific devastated i was...ATI,ASMA and NAD...and much to my surprise..i guess i was too indulged in my frustration..i barely noticed that these three people were so worried about this bubbly girl feeling so down....ehehe...they called me and consoled me...and i had no choice but to lift my spirit up..for these people..and i realized how much they mean to much the care about was never my intention to tell them about my frustration..but good dear people who are dear to you can always sense when something is not right...

when people keep telling that it is nearly impossible to find people who are truly being honest with you..i can sit back and smile..because i have found them...

im so blessed that i got people who love me..just for the way i am...and they keep on loving me no matter how far we are geographically...and they make me believe in sincerity and honesty...thanx guys...

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

today was a new experince to me in the court..i got to apply to the court to discharge the accused as the prosecution lacks evidence to convict him...when the case was called up, my master asked me to stand up and speak...i was so surprised because usually when my master came for a certain matter, he would do all the talking..but today he gave me the honour to ask for discharge in front of the magistrate...quite thrilled though...

abang is here because kakak is oustation, yesterday..when we were sitting on the couch..he was like telling us about the amazing profiles of imam hanafi,hanbali,shafie and maliki..and he was saying "who are these people to question the credibility of the hukm by these great imams?" brother and i always discuss about the theoretical aspects of ijtihad and how little we know about the basis of the hukm,the law, the maqasid...because people dont really care to study these issues in details...for many of us know the degree/status of hadith relating to male's aurah and music...and how many of us know the explanation of those reality..we tend to take matters literally...subtle..on the surface..and this failure has given more rooms to those people out there to make fun of our religion..quoting hadith which was fabricated...quoting hadith without the real knowledge as to the real syarah/explanation of the hadith...foer instance..the Pope's sayings about our beloved Prophet...which are far from true..

and my last words are.."let's introduce the Religion by the sayings of the Prophet and dont let the lips of the ignorant and the enemy spread those sayings and contaminate our Religion....peace out...

Friday, November 03, 2006

The day the child realizes that all adults are imperfect, he becomes an adolescent; the day he forgives them, he becomes an adult; the day he forgives himself, he becomes wise...-alden nowland.
happy eidul fitr...even though the raya mood has faded away..but the memory on the first day of raya was usual..kakak and abang arzlee were with us this raya..abang firhat got quarantined because he got chicken pox..and kakak went back to the morning abah, mak, adik abg arzlee,kakak,adik and me took raya photos...paid visit to back home..watched tv...just like previuos raya..but what made it fun..the laughter..the jokes we made..the conversation we had...plainly fun..

and i still remeber 2 days before raya i started messaging dear frens of usual..every make a standard template of raya message-a pantun in particular...when i was cracking up my head thinking about the theme of the pantun message..i got a very brilliant idea..because the night before that i was so full of beans since my favourite team won against liverpool...way the go man u!!!!the message was :

"old trafford menjadi saksi,
man utd menang bergaya,
hari raya menjelang kembali,
ingin ku ucap selamat hari raya..-fadiah-the ever staunch fan of mu-"

so i started sending this msg to all my frens..

and much to my surprise..instead of getting a reply on raya msg i got funny reply particularly from liverpool fan, and arsenal fan too..(jealousy i guess ehehe)...i kept laughing and laughing...i still remeber pakdi said to me "takkan ku ampun mu fan di hari raya..pouchu..nak msg raya lain"...then i sent pakdi another msg as he requested..."selamat hari raya..maaf zahir batin...jemputlah datang ke rumah pouchu di old trafford"...;)

and khalid, abang ikhwan-being staunch fans of arsenal (uwekkk) were like...soooo jealous of mu..sorry guys!!!just cant help myself from being so joyous bout the victory..

and sarah kambali..being my mu fren since we were in uia...obviously shared the same sentiment as i did..way to go girl!!!!

that basically was it..raya 2006...

peace out!!!!****