Monday, February 07, 2005

love and pain....

Fragile Heart [jewel]
If u want my heartU have 2 promise not 2 tear it apart
Cause my heartHas been hurt a lot
And it always seemsLove is not sweet,
like in dreams
Something falls through
But I don't want that 2 happen 2 me and u
So be Careful,
warningFragile heart
Last SaturdayWe ate dinner at your parents' placeLast Saturday,
u saidHow u feel will not go away,Well,
all the fishes in the sea Could not be happier than me
Only fools believe thatNothing changes,
nothing leaves
But I need 2 believe that we at leastWill have some dignity
'Cause everything changes
Nothing stays the same
But that's no excuse 2 be casualOr 2 place the blameU have 2 be careful with me..

i got this song from a seems like everyday we're dealing with the same issue when emotions come into play..ahaks..a fact of life that no one could escape..last friday a good friend of mine broke an unexpected news...he said that everything has come to an end..i was so shocked..i thought he was joking...he said to me.."maybe he was looking for someone he liked and not someone that he needed"...what he said makes me think...its true...we can like anyone around us..people we know...but that doesnt mean we really need them..but we can like someone and we really need that person in our life...then only we know how much the person means to us...

to love and to cherish someone you love are wonderful...but the deeper the feeling gets, to me,the more the thought that you're gonna lose that person lingers in your mind...the fact that no one on earth could lose someone u really need..i guess no wonder why there are people who choose to live this life alone...they just cant bear the thought of losing someone they need..coz it really sometimes u can hear thier hearts are exactly breaking...but in life,u can never run away from reality...coz there's only one thing which is is uncertainty...may our faith and beliefs guide us along the way....

Friday, February 04, 2005


this whole week has been the most memorable week for me..too many emotions and conflict that i have to deal with..this is jessup life..everything is so wonderful...every time i go to the moot room i can feel this pleasant aura from my teammates' smiles...alhamdulillah...boon ka is organizing a big party tonight in pizza hut..cant wait..ehehe..

honesty,loyalty,betrayal,frenship..all these appeared in a blink of eyes..there must be a reason why ALLAH has placed me in this kind of learn and to be face this life till the end..

jessup makes realize that im not all alone in this world to fight for something good..the support and prayers form friends and family..make me feel so overwhelmed with gratitude that in the middle of the battle of life..i found a special place that makes me believe in happiness...thank you guys for everything...

just want to thank adrin for secret recipe cakes,mar for the MnM,boon ka for pizza...and a special thank to "YOU" for the lovely caramel candies and your time!!!