Tuesday, May 22, 2007

it was a great afternoon..i always wanted to be called to the bar before Dato' Sufian, and God granted me that wish.... the preparation was super complicated. it's the tradition, here. we have to organize some kind of kenduri, just like a wedding, but the difference is, there's no bride and bridegroom (obviously!!!). from the invitation card, making courtesy call, inviting the senior lawyers and judges,having an amazing race from one firm to another.it was extremely tiring. again, it's the tradition. but one good thing about keeping to this tradition is, there was always something to think about on our way back after seeing these people, a piece of advise. it might be short and simple, but it meant a lot..in conclusion, life has just begun..and there's a long way to go...

Wednesday, May 09, 2007


Life has always been an interesting subject. Watching Oprah, a few minutes ago was really awakening. Being a human figure, we subconsciously do have all the answers that life often asks. What makes it hard is being in a state of denial. Like it or not, we all know the answers. What is real in life is relentless. Admitting the truth is the hardest part when our ego leaves no room for some kind of enlightenment. Pointing fingers wouldn’t do much help either.

When Oprah was talking to Mary J. Blige on her breakthrough album that wasn’t just literally a breakthrough, it kinda struck me in the head. To quote what Mary J Blige said: “we are in so much pain when we are ignorant”. Her story of life was nothing but real. She has all the things that every one is dying to have. Popularity, talent, millions of dollars jewelry, priceless couture dress and all the fame in the world. What she meant by being ignorant was, with all the dreams that other people are dying to have, she was struggling with her own self and the environment that she lived in. everything seemed to be a mess that she could barely have control over. Partying and drinking all night long, shooting up on drugs define best the environment that she was tangled up in. She said, there were actually people who told her it was okay to be in a spin. It was okay to be in a mess. And the turning point was the day she met someone who actually told her “you shouldn’t do this, you shouldn’t do that” and that person was her husband. It was an awakening story. It was a life changing experience for her and others who are in deep struggle to find the purpose of life, to cherish the essence of human creation, to appreciate virtuous values in life.

For me, men are best taught through deliberation of what life is all about. To free ourselves from the shadow of ignorance. We look around us. Ask ourselves, is this the kind of life we wanna live in. if the answer is in the affirmative, ask ourselves again, are we truly happy with what we have and believe in at this point of time. And if we have to bid farewell to life tomorrow, can we just leave everything behind without any regrets. Life is too short to feed our ego and waste it away on denials.

Our lives are often masked and defined by the environment we live in. we might end up being freaks or weirdos if we do not condone with the popularly defined social norms, imposed by our environment. We might end up being a social outcast just because we are different. And, at the end of the show, Mary said that she’s lost her friends along her way to find the true meaning of life. And I figure, that’s nothing unusual.

Monday, May 07, 2007

Nothing unusual, nothing strange
Close to nothing at all
The same old scenario, the same old rain
And there's no explosions here
Then something unusual, something strange
Comes from nothing at all
I saw a spaceship fly by your window
Did you see it disappear? ...

Nothing unusual, nothing's changed
Just a little older that's all
You know when you've found it,
There's something I've learned
'Cause you feel it when they take it away..(amie-damien rice)

Thursday, May 03, 2007

A draconian truth

bau-bau cafe-the taste of activism

the dinner:)

Gerakan Mansuhkan ISA (GMI) Consultative Meeting
freedom of information campaign

the picnic