Thursday, February 28, 2008

the last couple of weeks have been so intense that i seemed to be so oblivious to my surrounding...all my life, i always wanted to do what ive been wanting to do..and it's always enough for me.knowing what you want to do and continue doing what you're dying to do, and missing out on something else.there's always a price to pay.but seriously, I am as happy as every one else. sometimes you just need to be all by yourself doing what you wanna do. i perceive my freedom in this life.and this is my freedom.i think that's all that really matters.apologies to people whose feelings I've hurt. sorry.

Monday, February 25, 2008

*general election mode*

*"Teenagers"by My Chemical Romance*

They're gonna clean up your looks
With all the lies in the books
To make a citizen out of you
Because they sleep with a gun
And keep an eye on you, son
So they can watch all the things you do

Because the drugs never work
They're gonna give you a smirk
'Cause they got methods of keeping you clean
They're gonna rip up your heads,
Your aspirations to shreds
Another cog in the murder machine

They said all teenagers scare the living *** out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

The boys and girls in the clique
The awful names that they stick
You're never gonna fit in much, kid
But if you're troubled and hurt
What you got under your shirt
Will make them pay for the things that they did

They said all teenagers scare the living *** out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

Ohhh yeah!

They said all teenagers scare the living *** out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

Friday, February 22, 2008

i know sometimes i just have to keep some things to myself, but i just cannot help it when it comes to something that is hilariously amusing... hence the conversation that took place:

me: it's just hilariously funny.
Edmund: yah, maybe 5 or 6 months from now, when you look back, you'll be laughing at this
me: I AM laughing over this now!(keep on laughing, God ,how amusing, even more amusing than an amusement park!)
Edmund: dont merajuk lah
me: no lah!

(and the conversation went on..)

that aside.

we had our agm yesterday, and much to my disappointment, there's nothing much really, to be disappointed with..hmm..wondering if it's a good or a bad thing...but I'm happy that the motion to abolish the Internal Security Act 1960 proposed by Sunil Lopez and seconded by Lim Fang Say and Amer Hamzah Arshad (with amendments) was carried as follows:-

RECOGNISING that the detention of persons without trial as provided for by the Internal Security Act 1960, violates principles of the Rule of Law and Human Rights.;

CONDEMNING the Internal Security Act 1960 as legislation that is draconian and archaic and prone to abuse;

REAFFIRMING the Malaysian Bar's Motion dated 27 November 1987, calling for the abolishment of the Internal Security Act 1960.

CONDEMNING the recent detention without trial on 13 December 2007 of 4 members of the Malaysian Bar namely Uthayakumar Ponnusamy, Manoharan Malayalam, R Kenghadharan and V. Ganabatirau and one other, T. Vasanthakumar under the Internal Security Act 1960 and the continued detention of numerous other persons.


That the Kuala Lumpur Bar calls on the Government of Malaysia to immediately repeal the Internal Security Act 1960 and to adopt the recommendations of the Human Rights Commission of Malaysia (SUHAKAM) contained in their Review of the Internal Security Act 1960 report of 2003; and

That the Kuala Lumpur Bar calls for all the current detainees under the Internal Security Act, to, be released immediately and where appropriate, be charged in an open and public trial.

and it was overwhelmingly exciting to see the GMI (Gerakan Mansukhkan ISA) together with dedicated volunteer lawyers have pulled the campaign off yesterday, as the set up booth seemed to be getting attention from those who were present. i would like to extend my heartfelt gratitude to Tina, Farhana,Renuka, the Legal Aiders, Kak Lat, GMI rep-Kak Laila, Kak Nashita,and all lawyers for their undying support to fight for this cause.and we shall continue fighting.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

as i was driving to work this morning, there was a discussion on the radio, more of like a debate. and the subject was the difference between the roles of husbands back then and the roles of husbands these days.typically guys would never concede to the fact that it is equally their duties to do the dishes and other house chores, just for the simple fact that they are the breadwinners of the family...i figure this kind of debate is not odd among us...for me, the idea of husbands being the bread winners of the family justifies them not doing other things around the house is rather customary rather than a 'religion' thing..because ive heard a lot of people criticizing/attacking 'religion' for this.

yah, i guess it is a lot easier to attack the 'religion' for our failure to comprehend the right concept.when something is wrong, "oh it's the religion"...male dominance world is not odd in human culture, pre-conceived ideas have penetrated people's minds over the years. what really matters is how you look at things. sensibly.

i find it rather senseless and utterly annoying that most guys don't even want to wash their own plates after meals, as if they were born not to be in the kitchen..halo!jamie oliver makes millions of dollars being an excellent chef and cooks for his wife..

it doesn't really matter who does what around the house and it does not make any difference even when you are married. it's just a simple thing and why do we have to make things complicated by arguing wives should do this because they are women. being different does not make one superior or inferior over the other. being different gives us more room to appreciate one and another, more of a symbiotic relationship rather than claiming dominance over the other.

it's that simple. and i wonder why we make such a big fuss out of it.

yesterday was my mom's birthday.I called her up to wish her happy birthday, and the funny part was, she did not even remember yesterday was her birthday...and i always remember telling my mom how lucky she was whenever she got mad at my dad-that at least, when we were kids, my dad did everything for her, from cleaning, doing the laundry, not saying a word when my mom didnt cook for him, washing our shoes until we were in standard six, waiting for hours in the car waiting for my mum to get ready to go to work..

see, who says guys cant do all these?

Monday, February 18, 2008

sometimes you can't help but break down whenever you feel frustrated about can literally hear you heart breaks especially when you give your heart and soul to make things right. i know sometimes things happened and we have to deal with it. reality is harsh. harsh, most of the time. it's complicated and I'm disheartened.

people say, you won't feel a thing if the thing that hurts you does not really matter, at least to you.people speculate.people criticize.people say what they want to say. for me, what people say does not really matter,seriously, as i know what I'm doing and i try not to say much about it as i feel that it's never enough and there are a lot of things that i need to continue doing.but then again, i am only human. perhaps, it's not good enough.

Friday, February 15, 2008


It’s Friday and work keeps piling up..have been doing some running around this afternoon to get everything done…God, sometimes being busy is such a makes time run even faster than you think, and sometimes being busy keeps your mind away from silly little things that are just gonna hold you back.

I was a little surprised to receive a phone call this afternoon from a friend asking about a friend of mine who happened to be writing something about someone. Yah, it’s a complicated connection. But believe me, blogs can be a powerful platform to send over messages to the people at large. Imagine, someone you barely know gets to know about something that you write on your blogs about him/her. God, how fast newS can spread these days!

When we dissent/criticize, it’s not meant to be some form of ATTACK. Something to be taken from a different perspective. ENGAGE. This is the word that I learned from Mr Puraveelan on legal aid BBQ night some months back. A lesson worth learning I would say.

Hmm..enough said on that. I can’t wait for tomorrow to come. I’ve always had a dream of returning to my alma mater some day, and contribute something. Tomorrow IIU will be hosting the National Client Counseling Competition and I’ll be there as one of the judges together with 4 learned friends of mine from the BC Human Rights Committee. Also looking forward to attending Legal Aid Appreciation Dinner on Saturday night!time to catch up and have some fun!

Monday, February 11, 2008


The long break is finally over, I’m back to work. Sabah trip with Kak Lat was fun. I learned a lot of things from the training, even though I was not the one who was trained as I ended up facilitating the participants.

Information that we got from the training was rather disturbing. It was the truth. An inconvenient one. As human, we tend to forget and ignore facts that are not pleasant.

Admitting to the facts makes us human. We talk so much about development. We talk so much about being the world’s number one. We are proud of having the largest this and that. It is ironic that every day, there are people who are thrown out of their land and left homeless. There are still people who live without electricity. There are still people who have to get used to having their water supply interrupted for two weeks every month. The state of poverty is getting more critical. Enough said I guess. There’s a long way to go and there are so many things need to be done. Awakened, and I’m grateful.

K.K has always been my kind of place. Beside the luxurious seafood treat, we had a great time ‘trespassing’ UMS hatchery and Syed Ali’s ‘secret’ workplace which include gigantic aquariums, a big turtle that got food poisoning, cute baby turtles. In conclusion, it was such a great escape, I wish I could stay there forever. K.K rocks!

Friday, February 08, 2008

4 days off from just feels like from work-related activities.and it's 5 hours away before im off to sabah...still feeling extra foggy since yesterday..really looking forward to enjoying this new experience.
FYI, this trip has nothing to do with me having a good vacation...more of exploring new experience--training.another kind of vacation for me.yup it sounds a lil weird, going for meetings, trainings, programs and hanging out in front of police stations or jails have always been a good therapy for me.self improvement!
hmm..i wonder why lately i kinda lost the ability to write.
mid life crisis?most of my friends who are still in this legal frat feel the same's depressing. but at least we have each other.heheh.hang in there people. we'll be just fine.