fade out into the stars

i just got back from langkawi this afternoon..on last monday...my master informed me that i have to go to langkawi magistrate's court for oral submission on stay of execution...i dont know what came over me, all that i could remember was, i was jumping joyfully for 3 seconds when i got the news..i love being in an island i just dont know why..i love the beaches, the sea, the feeling..but its kinda ironic that im scared of sunshine..heh...i thought of going one day earlier and stay with my auntie as i didnt have to rush on that very day to get a ferry and go the court on time..but unfortunately my auntie was in the mainland as she got some work here...so i decided to go on that very day earliest possible..but later my master told me that my client wanted me to come one day earlier so that i dont have to rush on that submission day...he told my master that he'd book a hotel and pick me up at the jetty.. and i was ok with that...but my master pointed out something that i never thought about..."are u okay to go all alone by yourself, im worried.."..and i straight away answered.."sure.."...then i was telling myself...why i never have any thoughts of having to do things myself..all alone by myself..then i went back home and asked mak to drop me off at the jetty...she straight away asked me "takkan nak pergi sorang..."and i was like "takpa...im used to it..no big deal.."..and then she was like.."mak ikut lah..sorang2..boleh teman cek.."..and i was like ..'ok..best gak mak ikot"..

when we got in langkawi my client mr shankar and his wife mdm parameswari picked us up and went straight to our hotel..i had the chance to talk to them...they are really really nice people..well mannered and decent people..i felt so comfortable talking to them...very nice people..we discussed on tomorrow's matter..they were so worried that the judge would not allow a stay and proceed with the assessment of damages...i explained to them the grounds that id put to the judge and id try my very best to explain to the judge of the whole situation and everything would be fine...

so that night i could hardly sleep because i was so worried about so many things about the case.."magistrate ni ok ke tak?how do i make him listen to my argument?..how do i make him understand the situation?how do i rebut the other side's lawyer's objection?then i realized that all that i could do is pray that tomorrow will be ok...

one thing about doing cases outstation as a chambering student..i always get this feeling the moment i stepped into the court.."im still a chambering student..and the people there in black blazers are already lawyers with experience..."...the moment my case was called up and i introduced myself.."dengan izin tuan, fadiah,pelatih dalam kamar bagi pihak defendan"..the lawyers started to look at me with the impression "jom tgk budak ni handle macam mana"..i guess its normal for them to think that way...the magistrate was kinda ok..after the plaintiff's lawyers finished his submission i stood up and submitted my grounds one by one on why the court should allow us a stay..and the magistrate was listening attentively and writing the points..and he was like.."ye fadiah, go on.."..ye fadiah...any other grounds you want to submit..."..i was so relived..then the lawyer stood up and objected to my application and stated that no payment has been made by our client to his client..i then stood up and told the court that my client had earlier, on September paid almost 17, 000 to the plaintiff but they refused to accept such payment..and due to that our client deposited the money into the client's account to show that they have made the effort to pay..and they have acted in good faith...then the magistrate looked surprised and looked at the other side's lawyer..

i was just smiling...then he was like "fadiah...so how?"and i replied "saya serahkan kepada budi bicara mahkamah...finally we got another date for pending settlement and we are determined to proceed with a formal application...i was so happy that i had pulled it off today..and what makes me even happier is to see that my client who has been putting so much trust and hope in this are happy of the outcome of that 15 minutes drama in court...they told me how depressed they were before because of inconsiderate attitude of the opponent before the case was brought to the court..and how much they have struggled and tolerated such unacceptable behavior...

and how much i want them to be realived as they really deserve it...sometimes when i get to sit and talk to the clients..it makes me understand about so many things..sincerity..honesty..trust and helping people in need..and the most important thing of all..to be able to help people to defend their right when we are in the position to fight for them..im so happy with this opportunity..with so much trust that my master has in me...i guess all the hard work and temporary brain damage that ive been suffering all this while when dealing with the workload and the obligation really pay..particularly when we realized that we are fighting for someone's right, when we are in the position to stand for what is right...