finally..after 5 years of studies..this is the only thing that i can afford to give to my parents and my family...tears of joy...for everything that i did during these 5 years was nothing but for my family...thanx for every single soul who was there with me to celebrate my big day..before and during the event..it meant a lot to me...thanx a lot..for the dinner treat,for the flowers,for the teddy bears,hugs and kisses..and wishes...

last week had been so divine..for God taught me the meaning of true happiness...people in general might look around and judge...they might say that what they see is nothing but misery..but to me..happiness is not what the naked eyes see..its what the heart feels...when faith is the only answer to every question left unanswered...for faith is nothing but the most priceless gift from God...

i was so thrilled to be able to spend my time with people who are dear to me...and i felt so blessed to be able to feel this...words can never do justice to what God has given me...even though i just got a week but the feeling was so heavenly...

the night before my convo..my family and i gathered in bukit tinggi and before that..abang azli and i gat caught i 3 hours traffic jam..it was crawling and we were so tired but the moment we got to bukit tinggi..the tiredness was compensated...we could feel the cool breeze,surrounded by french castles with total silence from the hustle bustle of the city...i slept like a baby that nite and i had to get up arly to attend my convo...

when all the LLBs were lining up i could see the cheerful faces of all people around me..it really was the biggest time of our lives..at least for the time being..when all the hard work really paid off..

but there was one thing that i could never forget wsa what happened to me after i got my scroll from the sultan of pahang...on my way down the stage..i accidentally lefi my shoe on the stage and i was stunned and all that i could hear was the people in the hall laughing..i was screaaaming im my heart..God..what a memorable event of my life..i was so embarassed to death..

after the ceremony..on my way out..i was busy searching for mum and abah...luckily i didnt get lost in the crowd...my whole family gathered..we took ltsa pics..and abang and abang azli wre my personal photographer..i just grabbed them anytime i wanted whenever i felt like taking pics...

it was fun..i decided to stay in uia while my family had their next plan in kl...its just that i needed some time to spend with my frens before i got home...

life has been so wonderful...today i resume working..my head is still not in the right mode when i reached my office this morning..my master told my office mate that he really hoped that i'd be back soon..here i am..with files piling up...but its ok..learning can never be boring right..ehehe...hmm..last nite i received a call no +3044 and i was wondering who was trying to reach me..i picked up the phone and the first thing i heard was "..lengloi..ni hau ma"..i was confused..it was pakteh sham...i was screaming...because i raelly missed him..he congartulated me for my convo and he wanted to give me a dinner treat..we talked and talked..and weve reached a consensuss on visiting south africa for the world cup..my idea..haha...and he told me that he's gonna buy me the new mu jersey...pakteh sham also asked me to follow him to latvia for a vacation during winter and we could go skiing together coz he got many frens there...i couldnt wait to see him..

hmm..that's all for now i guess..and pne more thing..beside my convo..there's one achievement that im so proud of..i managed to take a good care and feed 5 kak irah's cats..whoa..i tell u..it was never easy..thanx to akk irah..for being such a lovely sister..and for understanding...

words can never describe how i feel right now...im so blessed and im running out of words to say to God how grateful i am..its been a great stay here...and im so afraid of letting go of this moment..the air is full of love..for every hugs and kisses by people who always make me smile will hold me in tears...

and all that i hope for and all that i can give back is my unfailing prayers..to keep those souls protected and blessed...

and also for the unforgettable moment by the window and the chili cheese fries on the table...=)

there was this one day i read in a news paper about an sms sent by "bapa prihatin" which says "ibu bapa sanggup menangis bila anak gagal menjadi penyanyi..tapi ibu bapa tidak menangis bila anak-anak tidak berminat dengan pelajaran"..true...

my house is just near kompleks pendidikan..and every day when im on my way to work at about 820 am..i can see many school boys who are supposed to be in school..loafing around...doing things they shouldn't be doing...and my wonderful morning got ruined by this unwanted phenomena...and now im working on geting a hotline police number--trying to help those who seem to forget their responsibility...sometimes it's sad to see our youngsters nowadays.. what the future is gonna be if this thing keeps on happening on and on..

same goes when i go to court..youngsters getting charged with crimes...and they still have the guts to drag along their parents...it's so frustrating..but this is reality...if only they know the value of life and how short this life is..and how eternal the next life would be...i guess things would be different...

to see youngsters in palestine seems intriguiung..with a slight hope of getting what the own..they still fight for what they believe in...and indeed heaven is right there waiting to bless their souls..but in our country...things have been easy..but still..,many people still take things for granted..particularly when time is running out...

i sent a message to ellia last nite..and she replied.."kalkfad n uia takdapat dipisahan.."-hmm..5 years there have taught me a lot..particularly on frenship...

life sometimes is full of stagnancy..but it really is up to u how to go through it...when u look around u..there are many things for u to smile about..

but life has been a little different lately..choices nad decisions...sounds more serious than usual..but all i wanna do is smile..dont really have much time to burden my head thinking of these issues..

but life has been good to me for the past few months eventhough i might look stucked here in my hometown..kinda true though..but i enjoy being here coz work has been good too..to get to know many people in this practice really is helping me through my chambering...

but there's one undeniable fact..that im physically separated with my good buddies..but the thought that counts right..even my thoughts of them can make me smile when i was driving alone to work..people might think that i might have a little cuckoo in my head..whatever..

really missed my frens..ellia n our dream futsal team..i wish they're gona make it..last nite an old fren form me dic kuantan asked me to watch him play basketball..aiyakk..too bad man..they lost though..hehehe..n now..talking to kak wana..on what she's gona buy capin for his bday!!!

hmm..tomorrow is my the spm trial exam..that means i got to monitor my brother 24/7//after he had learned the unforgettable drama the other day when i found his report card..i flipped out and mom and abang firhat just kept quiet to see this amuk scene...i was so mad and i cried...my bro just sat in the sofa..no words spoken..and abg firhat said"mulai hari ni..kakcik in charge everything pasal studies adik..abang tak mau dengaq any word from kakcik complaning about u"..my bro cried..and cried..felt guilty..well thats good..and abg firhat made him promise us to strive for the exam...eventually..now ive become the unpaid tutor who has to sacrifice my tv session...he really is testing my patience..a real hard case when it comes to studies..but i can see a difference now...i wish him all the best!!!