i realized something when i woke up this morning..tomorrow is a new year..ill be 23.how time flies...i guess sometimes we dont realize that we are running out of time every time people get so excited elebrating new year...for every new year that comes..the closer we get to death as God has written the life span of a particular human being...how much have we done to get ourselves prepared to meet Him...

hmmm...we talk about life,happiness,sadness..and sometimes we get so sick and tired of things that happened around us..but no matter how hard life can be..there's only one place that promises serenity and strength..GOD...when people disappoint you..He is always there to listen to you..when people hurt you..He is always there to heal you...when you feel like the world is falling down on you..He is always there for you to save you...He loves you more than anything else as He gives you strength whenever you feel like telling Him how hard things are for you...when people fail you..just remember that He will never fail you...happiness is not what you have..its what you feel...

yesterday i had lunch with aton and ellia..they have been good company for me..out of the sudden we decided to go to ulu yam...its true that when we get close to nature..we are actually closer to God...thanx to ellia,aton and zai, for being there with me..it felt as if we were the only peolple in our own peaceful world...

happy new year to every one...to all my beloved frens who are always there for me..may God bless us...its a long way to go..with so little time...

alhamdulillah..everyone is so relieved that my sister's wedding has settled.everyone is so happy..especially abang azli and kak farah...and im so happy for both of them...a day that every member of my family will remember.

i got back on friday..with my cousin..i drove all the way to alor star..it was tiring but the feeling of being there with my family healed everything...i got to sleep next to my mom and adik fathir was so jealous of it..ahah..

the next morning abang asked me to follow him to buy stuff for bbq party after the wedding day as both of us were appointed as persons in charge with the party. kinda weird considering the fact that, in our family, he would be the last person to do this kind of thing..but im so happy to go with him to buy groceries and all necessary things for the bbq party..he was like asking me whether we should buy this or that..and i just took everything that i want..along the way we talked about so many things..kinda personal things..he advised me bout so many things...felt like crying knowing that so may people care about me...

after asar we went to the mosque for aqad nikah..i sat next to my sister..whispering and giggling..and abang azli lokoed so nervous...after aqad was done..he was asking his mom.."mak..maok buat apa duluk..protocol.."we just laughed..we took many pics in the mosque...

here came the wedding day..i was sooo busy putting make up on the fower girls...when af atie zaza and halis arrived i was still in my t shirt..eheh..only after that i changed...i asked them to eat first...the funny thing was..people got me mistaken with the bride..!!!!hmm..misrepresentation...

then af ati and zaza met my sister in her room..they were just laughing looking at my sister.."kitorang tak pernah tgk pengantin paling happy cam kak farah ni"..i replied.."bukan kawen pakse..sbb tula happy semacam je.."

when the majlis was over..it was time for the bbq party..everyone gathered around enjoying themselves...abng's frens..kakak's frens-kak dayang.kak nini and kak zu..my cousins...during the party i sat next to abang azli..we taked about many things..he gave me precious advice..his philosophy...what he believes in a relationship....im so happy that he's meant to be with my sister..a wonderful person..and im so grateful to have him as my brother...he's done and helped me with so many things even before he got married to kakak..and i regard him as my bother long before..and up until now....during the party..we played riddles and kak dayang told many funny stories..every one was laughing to death and no one realized that it was almost mid nite...

once again..thanx to af atie zaza and halis for coming all the way from ipoh and kl...me and my family really appreciate it..and to all my frens for their wishes..thanx!!

I read my horoscope for today..suprisingly,what's written below is exactly how im feeling right now...

--You usually know what -- or who -- you want, and you're usually ready to latch right on with little or no intention of letting go. A little indecision every so often is only natural, however, and if you're feeling it, don't try to deny it. In fact, it's probably worth investigating further. You may feel like you can't quite put your finger on what's holding you back, but look a little deeper and the source may become clear. Then -- ta-dah! -- your decision is clear, too--

WEDDING INVITATION...

TO ALL MY FRIENDS,YOU ARE CORDIALLY INVITED TO MY SISTER'S WEDDING (NOT MY WEDDING) ON 11TH DECEMBER AT MY HOUSE IN ALOR STAR.ANY INQUIRIES, YOU MAY JUST GIVE ME A CALL OR SMS.THANK YOU.

i watched oprah last nite.orlando bloom was invited as a guest.he said something that captivates me-"if you're lucky that you have everything that you need,it'd be wonderful if you can share something that you have with other people..."

selamat hari raya to all...maaf zahir dan batin...

nothing much to do at home..helping my sister for her wedding preparation..i learned a good lesson today..people get married..only God knows how complicated the procedure is..me, my sister and my dad had to wait for 30 minutes to meet the imam for an appointment..then we went to pejabat agama to get all the necssary details for the application...too bad..something was missing and my sister had to call abang azli to send all the forms from kuching..this might take a few days ..they fought on the phone..i just smiled..."susahla undang2 malaysia ni..nak kawen pon susah..my sister replied to abang azli..kalau susah sangat tak yah kawenla!!!"...and my sister told me.."sekarang ni tiap2 hari gaduh..baik jap..gaduh balik..ni sume sebab procedure nak kawen la ni..."..............

all that i can do is smile=)

im at klcc burger king right now..me and my friend just watched goal..awesome..for people out there who have a dream of becoming a footballer, you guys shoud watch this movie..i almost cried..ahah..raul looked goegeous in the club!!!to live a dream, u need the courage to pusue it even though some people might make fun of it...there's no harm to have beautiful dreams..and it is stangely exciting where that dream would drive you to...=)

alhamdulillah..i just finished my second last paper...im so relieved right now..after a long week of worries...finally the suffering has almost come to an end...

i got 5 days break before my last paper..just cant wait to drive back home with toni and my cousin..home...a place where no one will break your heart no matter how bad a situation might be...if ur finding for a true love..the answer is with ur family..a family who will love u unconditionally...really misssed home...my mommy..the only reason that makes me wanna do my best in my exam..just to see my mommy happy...o god..just cant wait to go home..

if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cz nothing I have is truly mine

I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cz there's really nothing left here to stop me

It's just a thought, only a thought...

my final exam starts this wednesday..i got sooo freaked out..but al i can do is to stay calm and get things done..insyaallah things will be fine..i got messages from my ex classmates asking me to send them the reunion pictures...thus, this justifies what im doin g right now in the cc..eheh..(alasan ni..)..

hmm..before i forget.. i just want to write back the testimonials written during the reunion..in case this tissue gets missing someday..

1- gembirenye mlm ni..harapnya idop ni akan sentiasa gembira cm sekarang!-ilie
2-kalau ilie gembira,kite gembira bangat sih!harap sampai bila2 akan best cam gini-ekin
3-tak tau nak kata camna..tapi happy la..-faizah
4-gelak cam nak mati..sakit pipi giler!!lenkali bagi cukup i korum 5/11..gempak beb!!-nurul
5-aku semangat nak datang sbb rindu ngan member punya pasa.keep in touch!!-syamser
6-apit halim ngan azi takde,sedih-rahmad
7-aku pikir makan free je..tapi best sekali dapat makan cendawan depan rahmad..mcm makan daging kawan..-pak abu
8-makan no.2, kawan2 no.1..tapi makan free no1, kawan2 no.2..-azrie
9-tq semua,pasni buat lagi-sofi
10-makan untuk hidup,makan untuk jumpa,makan menemukan segalanya..terima kasih..-lokman
11-hehe..windu zaman gadoh2..do blakang pintu next time k..-mimi.